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But separation is needful in this imperfect state.
• Friends must part and friendship sigh,
“How much would the pangs of parting be mitigated, could we indulge the pleasing hope that we should all meet at last on Canaan's happy shore, no more to separate. But how dreadful is the idea of a final separation! How heart-rending the thought, that any of us should be finally cast off and be banished from all good, to dwell with everlasting burnings! Merciful Saviour, prepare us by thy grace to appear before thy throne, clad in the robes of thy righteousness, and to spend an eternity in thy presence !"
On December 8th, 1822, she publicly professed her faith in Christ, and was received into the church in her native town. The following remarks were written on the occasion.
“Nov. 24th.—After repeated self-examination and earnest supplication for the aid of the Holy Spirit to direct in the path of duty, I have at length come to a decision
and this day offered myself in a public
manner for admission into the church. What lively gratitude ought I to exercise for the distinguishing goodness of God to so stubborn a rebel. To the praise of sovereign grace I would record it. I humbly hope and trust that I have tasted of the love of Christ, and, though long left to wander in darkness, that I have at length enjoyed the cheering beams of the Sun of Righteousness, and been led to consecrate , myself to the service of my Creator.
“ Dcc. Sth. The solemn scene is past. I have publicly avouched the Lord to be my God and portion-my Teacher and Sanctifier-my Prophet, Priest and King ; and am 'witness against myself that I have chosen the Lord to serve him. Now if I should go astray and wound this precious cause, I must be without excuse. O Lord, look graciously upon me, and grant that my resolutions of new obedience, made, I trust, in reliance on thy grace, may not prove transient as the morning dews. Suffer me not to break the solemn covenant engagement into which I have entered ; but make me useful in thy spiritual. vineyard. Look in compassion on my dear companions. O revive thy work in this place, especially among the youth. The spiritual interest of a number lies near my heart in a special manner; and may I never, by a careless walk or an unchristian temper, prove a 'stumbling block’ to them; but may I recommend the religion of Jesus, by exemplifying its pure, peaceable, humble, compassionate, self-denying spirit. I am weak in myself—may thy grace be made perfect in my weakness.
“May the solemnities of this day's transactions long dwell in my mind, and excite me to greater diligence, zeal and watchfulness than I have ever before exercised. I commend to thy grace her from whom it has been my greatest cross—my greatest grief to separate. Bind up the wounds which thine arrows have made, and cause her speedily to rejoice in thy salvation. Give her faith to view the bleeding Saviour as her sacrifice, wounded for her transgressions, and bruised for her iniquities. May she find, by happy experience, that there is balm in Gilead and an All-powerful Physician there."
· The commencement of her religious life was characterized by extreme diffidence respecting herself, and by a conscientious and faithful discharge of duty. She was a growing Christian. Her piety soon became active, and distinguished her in the cause
of benevolence. Children were the special objects of her attention, and she was ever ready to impart to them her advice and instruction. She was early engaged as a teacher in the Sabbath school, and cheerfully employed her influence and labors in collecting the young into an institution in which they might hear and learn the words of eternal life. No one appreciated more highly than she, this powerful and efficient method of doing good. Many will have occasion to bless God during the ages of eternity, that she took them by the hand and kindly led them to the Bible class and Sabbath school, where they received those impressions which terminated in their conversion to God. It is here worthy of remark, that almost every individual who early commenced attending on these institutions, and who continued to attend, subsequently became a hopeful subject of divine grace. All the objects of Christian benevolence engaged the affections and the efforts of her, whose labors have ceased from the earth. Hers was not that charity which says to the needy, be ye warmed and clothed,' and does nothing to relieve their necessities. She prayed fervently and gave liberally, and no member of the church was perhaps more successful in soliciting con
tributions from others. Doubtless many a heathen has been savingly benefitted by her exertions in their behalf, while silently going the circuit of her father's neighborhood, to solicit the means of sending to them the bread of life. Understanding the merits of the cause in which she was engaged, she exhibited the subject with so much sweetness and impressiveness of manner, that none could be offended, and few could resist her entreaties. Little did she think that she should ever go in person to carry the destitute the glad tidings of redeeming love, when she was engaged in such errands of mercy! But the principles and feelings were here cultivated and strengthened, which were to shape her future course, and sustain her in sacrificing almost every earthly good.
She was naturally modest and retiring, and exceedingly distrustsul of her own abilities. “ Full many a gem of purest ray serene,
The dark, unfathomed caves of ocean bear,
And waste its sweetness on the desert air.” Such, probably, from her diffidence and love of retirement, would have been the condition of the subject of this memoir, had not her active piety called her from ob