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he was exempted from the miseries of our wretched situation, during the most severe part of the winter.

After his misfortune, we seldom ventured to go on deck; and, as we could neither walk, nor stand upright, below, we were obliged, for several weeks, to sit muffled in great-coats, with our bed clothes wrapped round our lower extremities, and beating our feet on the boards from day to day, to prevent the loss of our limbs. When it blew hard, which was frequently the case, our situation was truly melancholy. Three of the ballast-ports were without stoppers, and consequently admitted both winds and waves. Hence, through all the storms of a most inclement winter, we were reduced to the disagreeable alternative of being pinched with cold and drenched in water, by allowing them to continue open; or sitting in darkness, almost total, by stuffing them with rubbish; the only admissible light, in that case, being what passed through the two panes of glass in the port of our castle. In this situation, we endeavoured, as much as possible, to amuse ourselves with reading: but in this we labored under painful restrictions, the use of candles being prohibited, after eight o'clock at night. This prohibition was so severely enforced, that we were frequently insulted for a few minutes excess; and, on one or two occasions, a ruffian soldier

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soldier, having unbolted the cover of the hatchway, came down and kicked our candles from before us.

Under these circumstances, without variation, except what depended on the weather, did we languish, during the three dreary turbulent months, from the 25th of December till March 25th. And, in addition to the sufferings to which they exposed us, sickness and pain prevailed to a considerable extent. In the course of the winter, several were obliged to be sent on shore for the preservation of their lives; yet many others, real objects of compassionate attention were left behind.

With me, these months passed very uncomfortably. I had two or three attacks of gout, though no regular fit; and a bilious complaint, to which I had been long subject, was frequently troublesome. Latterly, from total want of exercise, cold, &c. I became very much crippled. Indeed, I could scarcely be otherwise; for, dreadfully inclement as the season was, I did not enjoy the comfort of fire-heat or even the sight of a fire, for ten minutes, during the period I have mentioned, viz. from December 25th until the 25th of March. It is true, the gloom of the castle was somewhat dissipated by the kindness of a few friends, who continued their visits occasionally when the weather would

admit. Yet, after the removal of Messrs. Tennent, Simms, and some others of my mess, my hours would have passed very heavily, had it not been for the lively, rational, and entertaining conversation of a Mr. David B. Warden. Now, that I have mentioned this young man, I hope I shall be excused for adding, that he was only a poor probationer; under the care of the presbytery of which I was an unworthy member that his father was tenant to the earl of Londonderry, father of lord v. Castlereagh, minister of the day-that, after the insurrection in the county of Down, he obtained with great difficulty, permission to emigrate to America-that, for several years, he has been, and now is, secretary to the American legation at Paris-and that, besides filling that department with honor to himself, and satisfaction to the state, he has been rising as regularly, and almost as rapidly, in the literary world, as the son of his father's landlord has been sinking, in the political.

Thus far, I have written, partly from memory, and partly from detached memoranda, having kept no regular journal, till after my arrival in Scotland. However, I have not related a single circumstance, but on the most perfect recollection, which I could command, aided by these memoranda. Many things, truly painful and offensive, I have left unmentioned, because I attributed

I attributed them to the ignorance, indiscretion, or petulance, of individuals, strangers to the duties imposed on them, rather than to specific orders of government. Others I have endeavoured to present in colors as favorable as truth and honesty would admit. And, wherever praise was merited, I have not withholden it, in a single instance. But, if, in any thing, my feelings, or defects of memory, have led me into error, or misrepresentation, I shall not only submit to correction, but receive it with gratitude.

From the preceding detail-a detail to me truly painful-I proceed with pleasure to an account of a new change of situation, equally unexpected as any of the former; of new companions, and different scenes.

On the 25th. of March, while sitting at dinner, a voice on deck called my name, adding that "a gentleman there requested to see me." I immediately rose, and got on deck, with considerable pain, as one of my feet was greatly inflamed. On seeing a guard there, I was very much surprised, though I supposed it to be only for my safe conduct to Belfast; but much more so, when I was informed that it was to escort me to a ship, with prisoners from Dublin, which lay at anchor, two miles below us; and even this surprise was encreased, when on looking

looking over the ship's side, I perceived my old messmates, Messrs. Tennent, Simms, and Hunter, on board a boat, waiting till I should join them. Seeing this, I immediately calleddown to my fellow-prisoners, to tie up my mattress and bed clothes, and heave them, with my other trifles, on deck. This they did, with little trouble or delay. My luggage was thrown into the boat, and I followed. On this, as on former occasions, neither warrant, nor written order, for my removal, was produced, though demanded.

Whether this step was taken, from premediated cruelty, official wantonness, or idiotic resentment; or from whatever cause; the manner, in which it was taken, with respect to me at least, was mean, vile, and vengeful. On. former occasions, want of previous notice was a trifling matter, as our removals were only to a short distance, and our friends had it in their power to send our luggage after us. Here, the case was widely different. We were now to be transported to another land, and immured in a military prison, between which and Ireland there was no intercourse by sea or land, either regular or direct. From the coldness of the climate, it must have been known that warm clothing would be necessary for the preservation of our lives; and, if the British minister should copy the meanness and cruelty

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