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not change my present condition for all the wealth in the world! This has been a gradual thing with me, though I have not had such great joy till now. It is brighter to-day than ever. I have not had a cloud all through my illness. How great is the goodness of God! And all to be had for asking! Nothing to do for ourselves, but to take what God gives us ! All made ready for us. Only to humble ourselves and receive. clear, that when once seen, it is impossible to doubt. Press on with vigour. You won't reach perfection here; but seek the Holy Spirit.”

W.—"I'm delighted to see you thus, Doctor."

Dr. G.-“I'm delighted to see you, Mr. W., and all who entertain such views and are sincere like yourself. Learning, riches, fame, are all nothing in comparison."

W.-"I've often prayed for you, Doctor, when I've passed you in the street. There's nothing like religion for such times as these."

Dr. G.-"For all times. In health there's no pleasure like this.”

Dr. G. was much interested in listening to some of Cromwell's letters. The following extract especially delighted him :-"Salute your dear wife from me. Bid her beware of a bondage spirit. Fear is the natural issue of such a spirit; the antidote is Love. The voice of Fear is, 'If I had done this, if I had done that, how well it had been with me!' -I know this hath been her vain reasoning. Love argueth in this wise, “What a Christ have I! what a Father in and through him!' What a name hath my Father— Merciful, gracious, long-suffering, abundant in goodness and truth; forgiving iniquity, transgression, and sin !What a nature hath my father : He is LOVE; free in it, unchangeable, infinite! What a covenant between Him and Christ, -for all the seed, for every one : wherein He undertakes all, and the poor soul nothing ! . The new covenant is grace,--to or upon the soul; to which it (the soul) is passive and receptive : I'll do away their sins; I'll write my law, &c.; I'll put it in their hearts : they shall never depart from me, &c. This commends the love of God; it's Christ dying for men without strength—for men whilst sinners—whilst enemies. And shall we seek for the root of our comforts within us? What God hath done, what he is to us in Christ, this is the root of our comfort : in this is stability; in us is weakness. Acts of obedience are not perfect, and therefore yield not perfect grace. Faith, as an act, yields it not, but only as it carries us unto Him, who is our perfect rest and peace; in whoin we are accounted of, and received by the Father, even as Christ himself! This is our high calling. Rest we here, and here only.'

* Carlyle's “ Letters of Oliver Cromwell,” vol. ii., p. 377. “The Protector,” by Merle D’Aubigné, p. 202.

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Dr. G.-"Does Cromwell say that? Read it again. It's what I've been wanting these two hours. I've been thinking, O, if I had not gone to Harrowgate, or if I had not gone to Scarborough, I might have been better. How that suits me where he writes, 'Fear says, If I had done this, and avoided that: but Love says, What a Christ have I! What a Father have I !'”

Another letter, which specially interested him, was one addressed by the Protector to his “beloved daughter, Bridget Ireton,” in which he says, “Your sister is, I trust, in mercy, exercised with some perplexed thoughts. She sees her own vanity and carnal mind: bewailing it, she seeks after as I hope also) what will satisfy. And thus to be a seeker, is to be one of the best sect next to a finder; and such a one shall every faithful, humble seeker be at the end. Happy seeker, happy finder! Who ever tasted that the Lord is gracious, without some sense of self, vanity, and badness ? Dear heart, press on ; let not husband, let not anything cool thy affections after Christ. That which is best worthy of love in thy husband is that of the image of Christ he bears. Look on that, and love it best, and all the rest for that.”*

In the course of the day, Dr. G. asked for Watts' Hymns for Children, which had been

* Carlyle's “Letters of Oliver Cromwell,” vol. i., p. 277. “The Protector,” by Merle D'Aubigné, p. 79.

favourite book from his earliest years. He frequently interrupted the reader with expressions of admiration. His case was beautifully illustrated by the hymn

“ How fine has the day been! How bright was the sun !

How lovely and joyful the course that he run !
Though he rose in a niist, when his race he begun,

And there followed some droppings of rain :
But now the fair traveller comes to the west,
His rays are all gold, and his beauties are best;
He paints the sky gay as he sinks to his rest,

And foretells a bright rising again.”

To Mr. K.-"I have seen my own vileness, and sought the Saviour. I cannot tell the place and the time. The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh or whither it goeth.' But I know it proceeds from the goodness of God. Mine is a testimony which few can give. The course of my reading has been so curious and strange. I have met with so many quibbles and objections,

mind has often been in a maze and confusion.”

Mr. K.—“Those things are not profitable."

Dr. G.—“No! I don't regret that; it has given me a strength I could not otherwise expect. I feel now on so firm a rock, that Satan cannot possibly shake me.

But I am not trusting to myself. I have been always a seeker after truth, though often bewildered in the investigation.”

and my

Mrs. G. remarked, what a mercy it was that he had no clouds to darken, no temptations to harass him.

Dr. G.—"The moment they are suggested I dash them away, and keep my eye fixed on my Saviour; I find him always near.”

Mrs. G.--" Then you feel that

"Jesus can make a dying bed

Feel soft as downy pillows are.'

Dr. G.–“Indeed I can! And what a mercy to be able to enjoy conversation, with my memory and intellect as clear as ever! And now that my pain has subsided, I can enjoy my friends. I often expressed a wish to die when my sufferings were so intense, for I had no fear. But I see how much better it was that I did not die then. He knows the best.”

Mrs. G.—“You seem to feel the Saviour so very near.”

Dr. G.--"Indeed I do! If I had not him as my friend, what a dreary departing it would be; but now I am going to a dear, dear friend !”

Mrs. G._“You have exerted yourself to-day very much, in speaking to every one; but you are so anxious to preach Christ.”

Dr. G. -"Indeed I am! And I think and feel this may be my last opportunity."

Mr. Knight.- “It is delightful to see you thus.”

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