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and “There is a happy land,” conversation was resumed, when he said, “Instead of my own sinful deeds, I rely on Christ. How this would purify my deeds themselves, were I going to live !—a thing I never saw before. I cannot tell what Satan might do, but I feel my faith such, that I could not do a thing contrary to the will of God. It would so shock me, that I think I could not exist under it. I should wish to be like Christ himself. Thus faith and good works become united. You may be sure I have been taught this in a way extraordinary. It seems all so clear to me.”

It was remarked that Christians do not always see these truths as clearly as he then did. He replied, “Because we begin to argue and cavil; that's where it is. We are not as little children.” It was observed, that if he recovered, he would find Satan, the flesh, and the world, to contend against, and would have to fight. He replied, “Yes, but I could fight. Oh, I feel what strength the good Saviour has given me!” Being asked if he felt the least fear of dying, he replied, “I meet death as a friend—he will take me to that Saviour who has been so good to me. I feel as if I could stand upto-morrow in the market-place, and proclaim, in a voice of thunder, to all the town what I feel.—How men can keep away from religion, or when once they have faith in Christ do what is against his will, or how they can be unhappy when God is their friend, I don't know; but to me, at present, it would seem impossible. I wonder how Christians can make a trouble of anything. But 0 the pride of the world, seeking after great things ! If I could see God as my friend, how great should I feel above all the world! O what sweet converse this is, to talk of the goodness of God, and to me so undeserving! There is never any abatement of it. It is love throughout! I hope I shall have a comfortable day to-morrow, and pass a happy sabbath with my friends." He fell asleep as we continued to talk, having had scarcely any rest throughout the day.

CHAPTER VIII,

FROM SUNDAY. JAN. 28, TO SUNDAY, FEB. 4.

THE SHEPHERD'S DOG — VARIOUS INTERVIEWS— FUNERAL TES

TIMONY RELIGION IN HARMONY WITH REASON - LORD'S

SUPPER - EXPERIMENTAL EVIDENCE EXTRACT FROM MR. KNIGHT'S FUNERAL SERMON—NO DEATH TO THE CHRISTIAN

SELECTION OF HIS GRAVE KIRKE WHITE ATTENTION TO WORLDLY AFFAIRS-LETTER FROM THE AUTHOR OF "THE SINNER'S FRIEND CHRISTIANS REGARD THEMSELVES THE

CHIEF OF SINNERS.

SUNDAY, Jan. 28. On awaking, Dr. G. said, “I have been thinking of God as a shepherd. The shepherd sends out his dog when a sheep has wandered from the fold, to bark at, and frighten, and sometimes to bite the wanderer, in order to bring it back. So afflictions and pains are the dogs which our Shepherd sends to bring us back to Him. Some of us are stubborn sheep. I was one of these, and the dog had to bite me; but the barking and biting are to do us good, not harm, and to bring us to the Shepherd.”

The Rev. Dr. Doddin called to bid him farewell, when the following dialogue took place :

Dr. G.—“This affliction was all for my good, my happiness."

Dr. D._"God sends afflictions, that we may remember Him."

Dr. G.—“Not only that we may remember Him, but that we may have joy. I have had more enjoyment the last few weeks than in my whole life. I could not have a doubt, not one.

He saw me a rebellious child. I am a miracle-an example of a marvellous interposition of God. A short illness would not have been enough. He saw I needed all this, and oh! the blessing that has attended it!"

Dr. D.—“More seems necessary to be done for educated men than for others. They have pride of intellect and of heart to be subdued. But there's only one way.”

Dr. G.—“Only one! I trusted too much to human learning, but when I saw how to get this by coming as a little child, it burst on me in a way I cannot describe. But man could not have taught me this. It was the Holy Spirit of grace. Then it all rushed

upon my view at once. I saw Christ my Saviour, stripped off all my filthy deeds, went to the foot of the cross, and Christ presented me to God.”

Dr. D.-“This is the best wisdom."

Dr. G.—“It is the only way. I could laugh to scorn the man who rests in his learning.”

Dr. D.--"The true wisdom is in coming to Christ. This is joy.”

Dr. G.—“And power and majesty. You have a greatness in your soul you never felt before. You have no fear of the world, or death, or anything. You feel God is your companion and friend, cherishing you by constant intercourse. Oh, the hours I have spent of the most delightful kind, such as I never experienced before !”

Dr. D.—“The people of God sometimes feel the truth of what some may think too strongly expressed by Dr. Watts,

• The opening heavens around me shine

With beams of sacred bliss,
While Jesus shows his heart is mine,

And whispers, I am his.'

You feel this?"

Dr. G.–“Yes, in the most exquisite way.”
Dr. D.—“It is God who began this work.”

Dr. G. _“I could believe no other. The result proves it. I should desire no stronger proof of the truth of Christianity than my own case.

It is so adapted to me. Not that it escaped my investigation before. It was my study daily. But I trusted too much to human learning. But oh! I am safely landed at last, and in a manner to me most extraordinary. I have attended in many sickrooms, and heard of doubts and fears, but I have no such things."

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