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I am soon relieved from my want by divine providence.' He collected all his remaining strength, and went in this starving condition to the church, being often obliged to stop on the way to rest himself. He took his pocketbook, and his other papers along with him, that in case of some accident, his person and circumstances might be known. At last, at one o'clock, he arrived safely at the church, where he met nobody but an old man and woman. Of them he inquired, whether Mr. Kester was to preach; to his great concern they answered in the negative, saying, that another clergyman, Mr. Kalkoen, was to preach a thanksgiving sermon, on account of the Lord's Supper administered that morning. This was trying intelligence, as he did not understand Dutch. He sat down and sighed: Oh Lord! how long wilt thou hide thy face from me?' His troubled mind was soon comforted by that text, “ My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord, neither be weary of his correction,' (Prov. iii. 11); wherefore he said, “Oh Lord! if I shall conclude from these corrections, that thou lovest me, and find comfort thereby, then grant, Oh Lord ! so much grace unto me, that I may feel a right assurance in my soul, what Jesus thy beloved Son has paid for me a cursed sinner, and reconcile me to thee:- Alas! I find as yet no peace in my heart, I am still so anxious and troubled; shall I give up my spirit in this affliction?'; During this prayer he remembered those words of St. Paul,

now no chastening for the preseat seemeth to be joyous, but grievous. Nevertheless, afterward, it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.' At this moment an old man touched him, saying, 'Friend, can I please you with some cake?' Though almost starving, his pride prevailed over his want, and he refused it: no sooner had he done so, than his conscience reproached him for thus rejecting the food offered by the providence of God. It pleased God to incline this person's heart kindly towards hiin, and notwithstanding the refusal, he slipped half a cake into his pocket, not unperceived indeed -- with longing hands he took it out, and with it, fourpence, which the old man, unknown to him had also put in along with the cake. At last the service began the prayer he could neither hear nor understand. He entreated the Lord to open his ears and heart, and by his Spirit to cause his word to penetrate his soul. The minister then began to read the text, (Ps. cxxxviii. 8,) 'The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me; thy mercy, O Lord, endureth for ever; forsake not the works of thine own hands.' Long, long after did the remembrance of that sermon call up the emotions of his heart! he was so transported in spirit by the explanation of the text, that it seemed to him as if the minister spoke plain Hebrew, and thought he, what can the other people in the church do, as they cannot understand the preacher?'. When we consider the weak and emaciated state of his bodily frame, and the strong excitement of his mind at this time, it is not difficult to believe this statement, without following him in his perguasion that it pleased the Lord to invert the natural course of things for his sake, in causing him to understand the language: especially as he confesses that the Low-German language, which he was acquainted with, has some similarity to the Dutch • this thought occurred to himself, and he borrowed a book of a person near bim to see if he could understand it, but found he could not; meanwhile, these reasonings had distracted his mind, and when he again turned his attention to the sermon, it was unintelligible to him: he felt grieved at the loss, but endeavoured to rest upon the remenbrance of the words, ' Thy mercy, O Lord ! endureth for ever!!

Before he left the church, he asked the old nan before mentioned, whether he could not direct him to some place of worship, where the children of God assembled to consider the word of God, and exhort and comfort themselves with one another? He answered him, that every Tuesday and Thursday, in the evening, such a meeting was held at the Achter-Burgwall, near the Lynbaansteeg. He returned him thanks, and endeavouring to keep this direction in remembrance, went back to his lodging most heartily giving

thanks to God, who had fed him so plentifully in body and soul. He relates that he brought his riches, with the greatest eagerness, out of his pocket, and after he had bought the most necessary things, he had the treasure of one penny left as a surplus.

" As soon as he arrived at his lodging, he threw himself upon his knees, in thanksgiving to the Lord. He then got his supper; which, though it consisted but of a piece of bread, seemed, he says, as relishing to bim as if he had been eating manna with the children of Israel in the wilderness.

" The next day he passed quietly in his lodgings; the next (Tuesday) seemed very long, and towards four o'clock, he went out, directing his way to the Lynbaarsteeg, intending to wait there, until

he should discover which was the place of worship, from the people passing that way. Here he waited for more than an hour without seeing anybody, till at last a gentleman, and soon after a gentlewoman, as also an old woman, came that way, and entered into a small house he hesitated for a while; at length two more gentlewomen came that way, and entered by the same door, so without further reflection he followed them. They went up several stairs, till they came to & room, upon entering which, he perceived several books lying upon the table, which convinced him it was the place he was in search of. Thankfully he sat down, praying that he might hear something as instructive to him, as the discourse on the preceding Sabbath. The text was taken from Psalm xxxiv, 19; “Many are the afflictions of the righteous; but the Lord dekvereth him out of them all.' When he heard the explanation he began to fancy that his circumstances must certainly be known to the preacher, so exactly was it suited to him, so perfectly was he able to make a personal application of all the sufferings, and also of the divine deliverances mentioned in the sermon. And as often as he heard of the righteous who had been justified, not by their own righteousness, but by that of Jesus Christ, so often did he sigh in his heart: 01 that I could be a partaker of this justification by Jesus Christ!. This is my desire, Lord Jesus! that thou mayest comfort me by thy Spirit, and say to me," My son, thy sins are forgiven thee.

"After the sermon, several of the persons present accosted him. They were for the most part poor,' but, says be, their love and charity were so great, that they willingly shared their morsel of bread with me.' be returned with a joyful heart to his lodging, and from this day he never wanted.

." On the Thursday he went again to the court of consistory; be addressed himself to M. de Fries, the gentleman who had spoken to him before, who told him he must wait a little. At last, he was called in, and the president inquired what was his petition ?. He delivered to him his

testimonials, and requested him to write to the ministers at Wesel, and inquire into the truth of what was stated. They gave him six guilders, and desired him to come again in a fortnight

"It was on the 22d of October that he appeared, for the last time, before the court, when the president informed him that the Rev. Van Essen was the gentleman commissioned to instruct him. He expressed his bearty thanks, and after he had left the court one of the ministers came to him, and showed him the way to M. Van Essen's residence. It may be imagined what satisfaction this gave him. After all his difficulties and trials, he had now attained bis object. M. Van Essen received him with the kindest welcome; and not only so, but afterwards conducted himself as a friend and a father to him: for the space of six months, he patiently and diligently laboured to inform him in all the great doctrines of Christianity : carefully passing throngh all the passages of the Old Testament treating of the Messiah, as well as all other points of divine truth.

" On the 29th of April, 1767, M. Van Essen acquainted him that the time was now come for bis baptism : previous to which he requested him to write down his confession of faith, and deliver it to him : and as he was going on

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a journey for a short time, his temporary absence would give him an opportunity of doing so. It so happened that Wesel was his purposed destination; he was going thither in company with another minister, M. Van Brinck, in order to ordain his son to the ministry at that place. Duitsch rejoiced at this circumstance, as he thought it would afford his friend an opportunity of obtaining a true and exact account of his former situation and conduct": he considered it a particular direction of providence to bis advantage.

“And now he was once more left alone, and under these solemn circumstances, about publicly to enter the ehurch by the ordinance of baptism, and to confess his faith before the Christian world. He had obtained that which he had so long and earnestly sought after,--the continued and efficient in structions of a Christian minister; he looked forward to his baptism with joy, and it is to be hoped that well-grounded and settled in the faith, he had attained unto the knowledge of God in Christ, 'Men ought always to pray and not to faint.' This little narrative is an encouraging comment on this blessed lesson. He had waited, prayed, and persevered-neither his own weakness, nor the sense of his ignorance, nor the clouds by which bis weak faith was overcast, nor bodily privations and sufferings approaching even to starvation, nor even that trial which is peculiarly hard to a convert, the coldness and indifference of other Christians, could turn him from the way he waited-prayed-persevered—and was received. And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee; for thou Lord hast never failed them that seek thee. Ps. ix. 10.

“ He says that he felt many difficulties in writing down the confession of his faith : yet it pleased the Lord to imprint on his anxious heart, the words of St. Paul, (Rom. x. 9, 10,) 'if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness, and with the mouth, confession is made unto salvation ;,' and the Lord gave him grace, that he could (according, he says, to the words of the keeper of the prison, “Sirs, what must I do to be saved,') draw up this confession, which afterwards appeared in the world under this title'; "The glorified Jehovah, by the knowledge of the true Messias Jesus Christ."

Checquered is the light as to this world's comfort, which in this närrative falls upon the closing scene. Though no longer a friendless wanderer, and upon the point of obtaiving that which he had so long sought after, admission into the Christian Church, Duitsch yet felt himself surrounded inwardly and outwardly with many afflictions, and looked forward to others which he foresaw (or perhaps mistrustfully feared) awaited him, He expresses himself comforted with the knowledge that Jesus, his faithful Saviour, would not lay greater burdens on him than he was able to bear, and would not forsake the work of his hands, or leave it imperfect in him : and though perhaps, something more might shortly happen, yet nothing could separate him from the love of God, which is in Jesus Christ our Lord. He concludes his narrative with this prayer; "To thee, O Lord! I give 'most hearty thanks for all thy mercies and loving-kindness, which thou hast so freely and undeservedly bestowed upon me, a curse-deserving sinner, in that thou hast guided and instructed me in my blindness, in ways and paths which I was ignorant of. To thee, ( thou searcher of the heart, it is known that I have drawn up this account of my life, for no other purpose than the glory of thy name. What I am, I am through thee, and by thy grace. O God! from thee, through thee, and of thee, are all things! To thee bę honour and glory for ever and ever.' Amen.""-(pp. 232-241.)

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