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walked in his integrity, trusting in the Lord, and one for himself, renew our baptismal engagements not looking to the counsel or the aid of vain men to be the Lord's, renouncing the devil, the world, and dissemblers. He prays that the Lord would and the desh ; where we receive what we profess examine him and prove him, and try his reins and to regard, not only as a sign but a seal of our his heart, so as to disclose to himself his own most union to Christ as members of his spiritual body, secret thoughts and motives : and having the tes- and through which we expect to be “ made partimony of his conscience-quickened and enlight-takers of his flesh and blood, with all his beneened as it had been by a sense of the divine fits, to our spiritual nourishment, and growth in sence—that the loving kindness of the Lord, and grace." And I would observe generally, that by not the assembly of evil-doers, had been his stay washing our hands in innocency, we are to unand support, he expresses the joy and boldness derstand, looking by faith to the blood of Christ, with which, having washed his hands in inno- as that alone which cleanses us from all sin, and cency,” he would “ compass the altar of the Lord, seeking to have this faith in lively exercise. to publish with the voice of thanksgiving, and tell Apart from Christ, there is nothing in us, as we of all God's wondrous works.”

appear in the sight of God, but guilt and polluBut by washing his hands in innocency, we are tion ; for it is testified of all men that they are not to understand merely that he stood acquitted “ guilty before God,” that they “ are all as an before God and his own conscience of certain sins unclean thing, and all their righteousness as filthy which had been falsely laid to his charge. That, no rags ; that they do all fade as a leaf, and their doubt, would be a delightful discovery to him, and iniquities, like the wind, have carried them away.” the subject of warm and unfeigned gratitude to As sinners, therefore, we are under condemnathe God of all grace, who had so “ delivered his tion ; and if “we are justified,” it is “ through eyes from tears, and his feet from falling.” But the redemption which is in Christ Jesus;”—if “ we the rigorous self-examination which led to this are made the righteousness of God," or treated discovery, could not fail to disclose to him a great as righteous persons in the sight of God, it is deal more than he would otherwise have known because Christ " was made sin for us though he or thought of, as to the state of his heart and af- knew no sin ;"—if we are held clean, it is because fections, and the tenor of his life in other respects;

« Christ has washed us from our sins in his own and could as little fail of bringing to light much blood.” But it is as plainly testified, that if we impurity, and imperfection, and sin. Whatever are so justified, treated as righteous, and held comfort, therefore, he might derive from the con- clean, it is through faith in Christ—not a mere sciousness of having been kept from sin on some opinion that what the Holy Scriptures say of points, that comfort would have been broken in Christ is true, which, as an opinion, may lie dorupon, and his freedom in approaching God laid mant in the understanding, and be altogether inunder restraint, if he were not cleansed from the efficacious as to any practical effect on the heart guilt of other transgressions. And accordingly he and life--but such a faith or belief as goes forth says, not “I will wash my hands in innocency,” in the exercise of trusting in, and cleaving to és if acquittal from the sins with which he was Christ, for acquittal and acceptance in the sight falsely charged had been all that he desired ; but of God, to the exclusion of

every

other ground have washed my hands in innocency,” that is to of hope whatever. It must be obvious, therefore, say, I will seek by penitence and faith, and through that such an exercise of faith in Christ, such the appointed medium, the pardon of all my trans- a cleaving in heart and soul to him, is absolutegressions—I will deliberately renounce every thing | ly essential, if we would make any approach which I have discovered in my heart or life to be to God that can either be acceptable to him, contrary to the divine law-and, through the grace or profitable to ourselves. To address God, of God, I will unreservedly surrender myself to the Supreme Lawgiver and Judge, without having his service and disposal ; and having so

66 washed on our minds, while doing so, a clear apprehenmy hands in innocency, I will compass thine altar, sion of the efficacy of Christ's blood and the neO Lord: that I may publish with the voice of cessity of his mediation, were an act of presumpthanksgiving, and tell of all thy wondrous works." tuous self-righteousness; it were to challenge a

Such appears to be the import of the text, as scrutiny of our character by the demands of that spoken by the Psalmist of himself; and be very law which has pronounced us guilty; and lievers still should be prepared to adopt his just in proportion to the vividness of this our language. We are not told what was the apprehension of Christ's perfected work, will be precise nature of the service which David con- the freedom with which we offer up our prayers templated, and which is here called compass- to God, and the confidence with which we exing the altar of the Lord. But it is plain that it pect that, in answer to our prayers, God will was a very solemn act of religious worship to grant us whatever is really for our gond. And if which he was looking forward, and for which he such a believing application to the blood of Christ, felt it necessary, in the way of preparation, that such a washing in the fountain of mercy opened he should " wash his hands in innocency."

And for sin and for uncleanness, is necessary for every surely such a preparation is not less necessary for approach to the throne of grace, and for rightly us when about to engage in the most solemn act preferring every petition there ; surely at a more of Christian worship that in which we do, each | solemn season, like this, when we are about to transact with God, in the way of declaring be- more nearly allied to pride, than to a feeling of fore the Church our cordial acceptance of Christ gratitude to Him whose grace had “ kept them as our covenant head, and our acquiescence in all from falling," and who had “ led them in the the terms of that covenant of which he is surety, paths of righteousness for his name's sake.” And it is peculiarly required that we should thus wash need I remark, that in such a frame of spirit, they our hands in innocency before we compass his are in no condition to make the solemn appeal holy altar.

which the Psalmist did : “ Judge me, O Lord ; But our text implies a great deal more than for I have walked in mine integrity : examine me, this, in reference to our preparation for the solemn o Lord, and prove me ; try my reins and my service of the Lord's Supper. In that service, heart.” They may have been unjustly suspected there is a formal, deliberate, and professedly an or accused, and may have held fast their integrity unreserved, surrender of ourselves to God, which in the case where they were charged with letting calls for a very solemn and unsparing examination it go; but they have not improved their trial as of the state of our heart, and the tenor of our life; it was the design of God's providence that they lest it should be found, that in word and in out- should improve it; they have incurred guilt, by ward profession, we are giving to God what in drawing gratification to their pride, from an event reality we are reserving for the world—for its frivol- which was both titted and intended to bring them ous pursuits, and sinful enjoyments. And on this into an humble and self-diffident spirit ; they have point the Psalmist has set us a very holy and in- not sisted themselves, as they ought to have done, structive example. He was not satistied with at the tribunal of conscience, and as in the very seeking to discover, and honestly confessing, the presence of God, to have his acquittal, and to give sins which he had outwardly committed ; but he him the glory: and if such guilt has been conmade those also of which he was conscious of tracted, then, so long as it is unrepented of, and being unjustly suspected or accused, the subject unacknowledged, they have not, in that instance, of a very rigorous examination ; thereby turning so “ washed their hands in innocency, as to be the very calumnies of the world to good account, prepared for compassing the altar of the Lord.” hy making them the means of detecting the in- But if Christians are called upon seriously to most secrets of his soul, and bringing to light examine themselves even respecting sins which those hidden impurities which, but for such a may have been unjustly laid to their charge, so call to examine himself, might have lurked and that they may enjoy the pleasing consciousness of gathered strength in his heart. And where is the being acquitted in the sight of God, and have Christian who has not been called upon, in the occasion to give to his restraining grace all the same way, to institute a similar inquiry into his glory and the praise ; surely it is not less necesmotives and principles of action ? For where is sary, that they should make the sins of which they the Christian who has not, at times, lain under have been guilty the special subjects of a solemn the suspicion, or been exposed to the charge, of investigation, and the occasion of a special applihaving said or done what was inconsistent with cation to the fountain of mercy, where alone they his Christian character, while his conscience bore can wash their hands in innocency. It is not witness that he was unjustly accused? The Church, enough that they make a general acknowledgment in her collective capacity, has, in all ages, been of guilt, and look to the blood of Christ for the in one way or other the object of calumny or re- removal of that guilt. If they confine themselves proach ; and any individual member of Christ's to such a general confession, and such a general body, who has not laid his account with bearing application to the blood of atonement, it will be his share of such calumnies, must have very im- | found, that there is nothing very deep or heartselt perfectly understood the many warnings and ad- in their sorrow, nor very lively in their faith ; monitions of his divine Master, and have formed and that all the while there may be much unsubvery low and partial views of the wisdom and rec- dued sin lurking in their heart, of which they have titude of God's administration. But I fear, hardly ever been conscious, and against which, it will be found that, even those who, as they therefore, they have never seriously contended. thought, were prepared to expect such trials, if they would " wash their hands in innocency," have not always improved them as the Psalmist they must make conscience of searching out and did. I fear that, in many cases, where Christians bringing to light their particular offences ; they have been so tried, instead of making such sea- must honestly endeavour to look at them in all sons times of deep huniliation, and serious in their extent and aggravation, tearing away the quiry into the state of their heart and affections, disguise in which pride and self-love are very they have given way to a haughty and self-right- ready to invest them; and having seen them as eous spirit ;—that instead of examining, with a they appear when tried by the divine law, without holy jealousy of themselves, whether they had not any palliation, they must confess them; and lookbeen guilty of entertaining in idea, at least, the ing to the blood of Christ with a simple and unsinsul act imputed to them, though innocent of divided reliance on its cleansing virtue, they must the act itself, they were satisfied with indignantly supplicate, for every sin so discovered and acresenting the charge, as an unjust and unmerited knowledged, the special exercise of God's forgiving reproach ;—and that the satisfaction which they mercy. And all this

, it is obvious, necessarily felt in the consciousness of their innocence was implies, that at the moment such confession is

ing prayer.

and state.

made, and such a supplication offered up, there is ing in their minds their reverence for divine truth, an earnest desire to be kept from these sins, and or their impressions of the necessity of Christian an honest purpose, in the strength of promised holiness. Are we prepared then to deal with ungrace, stedfastly to resist them in all time coming. sparing justice towards these and similar offences ? Where this is awanting, where there is any thing Are we anxious to see, in all their deformity, our like a mental reservation in favour of a sinful in- selfishness, pride, irritation, uncharitableness, which dulgence, or of some modification of such an in- is dishonesty, and every other unholy affection, dulgence, it gives a character of insincerity to the whether it has only lurked in our hearts, or been whole transaction ; and their own conscience, as actually manifested in words or deeds injurious to well as Scripture, will testify, that they cannot our neighbour? and above all, would we confess the sincerely expect to be heard ; or if they can pos- guilt, and deplore the consequences of having in silly so far delude themselves as to hope that any way hurt the spiritual interests of others, not they will, it is an unfounded hope, of which they only imploring the forgiveness of such offences, will, sooner or later, see reason to be ashamed. but sincerely seeking to be preserved from them In such circumstances, so far from “ washing their in all time coming? And let us see to it also, hands in innocency," they are willingly retaining that we are not living in the practice of sin, or in the unclean thing by which they have been defiled. the neglect of duty, about which our conscience To he so washed, they must not only be sprinkled may never have given us any uneasiness, just bewith that blood which cleanses from the guilt of cause, from the prevailing practices of society, we all sin, but sanctified also, by that Spirit who can may have been taking for granted that we may safely alone remove the pollution of sin ; and both these do what the Bible forbids, or leave undone what must be the subject of sincere, earnest, and believ- it requires. And let us not allege that these are

sins of ignorance. With the Word of God in our These principles are very plainly laid down in hand, such a plea is incompetent : for what is the the Bible, and comprehensively stated in the text. use of God's Word, but that by the daily and careLet us therefore apply them to our own character ful perusal of it, we may become daily better acIn the prospect of compassing the quainted with God's will

. If therefore we have Table of the Lord, are we prepared to subject our- been living in the practice of any one sin, or in the selves to the same scrutiny that David did ? and neglect of any one duty, in consequence of inattenwhile confessing our sins in the hope of finding tion or indifference to the Scriptures, such sin will mercy, are we honestly desirous also of forsaking be charged upon us as wilful: and it will assuredthem? And let us not be satisfied with being ly prove à root of bitterness springing up to able to reply generally to this question, that we trouble us.” David was well aware of the danger do hope for pardon by the blood of Christ, and of thus permitting any secret sin to lurk undisthat we desire also to walk as Christians ought to covered, and to gather strength in his heart: for walk. Let us examine our character, the state of we find him praying, “ Search me, O God, and our heart, and the tenor of our life, as they refer both know my heart : try me and know my thoughts : to God and our fellow-men, calling to our remem- and see if there he any wicked way in me, and lead brance those offences against both, of which our me in the way everlasting." And such also was conscience did at the time accuse us, but which obviously his sentiment, when he said in the words we may have too easily and too speedily forgotten. of the text, “ I will wash mine hands in innocency: And on recollecting any such offence more im

compass thine altar, O Lord : that I

may mediately coinmitted against God, any gratification publish with the voice of thanksgiving, and tell of in thought or deed which we know to have been all thy wondrous works.” forbidden in his Word, any rebellious feeling against his dispensations, or any neglect of the homage due

WATCHMEN IN THE EAST. to him, for the sake of some worldly object, which,

By the Rev. Robert JAMIESON, for the time, held the supremacy of our affections ;

Minister of Westruther. let us enquire whether we are ready to acknow

In Eastern countries, where they have no clocks, and lerge such offences, without palliation or disguise,

the mechanical contrivances used to supply the want of and are as honest in supplicating his grace to them are exceedingly imperfect, and but rarely possesscleanse us from its past pollution, and preserve us ed, the method generally employed to take the note of from its future influence, as we are in imploring time, is by dividing the day and night into four equal the pardon of its guilt. And, in like manner, let parts. The periodical return of these is announced by us ask, whether we are prepared to deal as honest- watchmen, some of whom are stationed on high towers, lp by ourselves, in regard to the offences with others patrol the various streets of the city, while their

duty is to proclaim with a loud cry, or by instruments which we may have been chargeable against our

of music, the intervals as they pass. This is more parfellow-men.

We cannot fail, if we are faithful to ticularly required of them at night, in the course of ourselves, to recollect many such sins,—occasions which they are obliged, not only at each watch, but at on which our pride, or anger, or some other sel-frequent intervals in the progress of it, to cry aloud in fish and ungodly principle was called into activity, order to give the people, who depend upon them for the and times, it may be, when we may have reason to protection of their lives and property, assurance that

they are not sleeping at their posts, or negligent of their jear that we said or did something to injure the charge. On these latter occasions, the exclamations are moral or spiritual character of others, by weaken- always addressed to their comrades, and generally con

so will I

sist of some expressions in the form of a dialogue tend- ye servants of the Lord, who stand in the night in the ing to encourage one another in the discharge of their house of the Lord. Lift up your hands in the sanctuary cheerless and monotonous task ;-some watch word, or and bless the Lord.” set form of words, similar to what a traveller informs us Second band of watchmen answer.-" The Lord is used by the watchmen of the caravans in the Desert, bless thee out of Zion—the Lord that made heaven and who, in going their rounds, exclaim when they meet, earth.” “ God is merciful,” while the other responds in the According to the rigid, and in many cases sanguinary laws same elevated tone, “ Blessings be on you," or, “ Mind of the East, to which we have already adverted, the office yourselves." The responsibility of these officers is very of a watchman is neither a sinecure nor is it an easy task, great, for whatever outrages are perpetrated, the watch- as he is responsible for the safety both of the persons and man who is on duty at the time is required to make things he is appointed to guard, and must pay, without rigid satisfaction in cases of robbery, by payment of the hope of mercy, the penalty of the utmost farthing, an equivalent for the stolen goods, and in cases of mur- either with his fortune or his life, for whatever disasters der, with his own blood; and hence, those who are happen, if it be proved that the occurrence took place appointed to this office are obliged, both from a sense in consequence of his having failed to give the alarm, or of duty, and from dread of the serious consequences of not taken due precautions to prevent the mischief. The negligence, to be constantly perambulating the streets, reader of the Scriptures will remember the tremendous and making the most vigilant efforts to prevent the oc- effect with which the fervid imagination of Ezekiel emcurrence of any disorder.

ploys this circumstance to pourtray the responsibility of The knowledge of these customs, which exist in the the spiritual watchmen who are stationed upon the bul. present day in almost all countries of the East, affords warks of Zion, and whose duty it is to proclaim aloud an obvious explanation of many circumstances mention- to the people the warnings, reproofs, and admonitions ed in the history, and many allusions made in the sacred of the Word of God. “O son of man, I have set thee books of the Jews, as among that people institutions a watchman unto the house of Israel; therefore thou of the same nature evidently prevailed. We may learn shalt hear the word at my mouth, and warn them from from the preceding observations what is meant (Judges me. When I say unto the wicked, O wicked man, thou vii. 19; Matthew xiv. 25.-—xxiv. 43; Luke xii. 38.) shalt surely die; if thou dost not speak to warn the by the first, second, third, and fourth watch, these being wicked from his way, that wicked man shall die in his the successive periods into which, reckoning their night iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand. to begin from our six o'clock, they were accustomed to Nevertheless, if thou warn the wicked of his way to divide that portion of time, and we may easily discover, turn from it; if he do not turn from his way, he shall too, how natural it was for them to use that term as a die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered thy soul.” general expression for the night season, as in Psalm Ixiii, (Ezekiel xxxiii. 8, 9.)" where the Psalmist speaks of the time he spent in devotion,-" When I meditate on thee in the night

DEATH-BED SCENES. watches.To the loud and frequent cries with which

No. III. the return of these intervals was made known, the Prophet Isaiah alludes in lii. 8, where he says,

BY THE Rev. ALEXANDER Moody, A.M. watchmen shall lift up the voice ;" in lxii. 6, where he As men live, so do men die. Within twenty-four hours speaks of them never holding their peace day nor of the death narrated in our last, another member of the night, crying aloud, and keeping not silence ;” and also human family had fled to the unseen world with widely in lvi. 10, where, in speaking of careless and unfaithful different feelings ; would that we could add with a watchmen, he deseribes them as dumb dogs, dreamers, widely different fate. He was not ignorant of the docthat love to slumber." The vehemence of these noc- trines of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. To his youthful train. turnal exclamations of the watchmen, would frequently ing, an inquisitive mind aided by no contemptible talent, awake those that were asleep; and as to persons thus had added a considerable stock of theological learning. suddenly roused, the quarter of the night announced as His reading had been chiefly of our old divines, and his having elapsed, would seem to have passed in the obli- | knowledge was not more extensive than his sentiments vion of their slumbers with the rapidity of a moment, we

were sound.

Where scarcely any society existed of a may perceive the exquisite force and beauty of the simile higher class, and where in his own rank of life any in Psalm xc. 4, thousand years are in thy sight but tolerable acquaintance with such subjects was sufficientas a watch in the night.The custom of the watch ly rare, we regarded him as some acquisition. It was men crying aloud in the course of the watches, and that, evident that his mind had found its chief exercise in retoo, by saluting each other when they met, in the form ligious inquiry; and on the various points of Christian of a set dialogue, was observed also by the ancient offi- doctrine his judgment was clear, his reasoning acute, cers of this description among the Jews—the watch- his conversation interesting and animated.

Nor did be word being then, as it is still, we have seen, among the converse like a man who had a mere speculative knowwatchmen of the caravans, some pious sentiment, in ledge of momentous truth. He spoke with seriousness which the name of Jehovah was specially expressed ; and fervour, with reverent inquiry and docility, and Two remarkable instances of this occur in Scripture, took a pleasure in dwelling on repentance, justification the one is in Isaiah lxii. 6, where, speaking of the watch by grace, and the other fundamental doctrines of our men of the Temple, who were always Levites, and faith. On these subjects, his views were perhaps as among whom the same regulations subsisted as among correct as an orthodox creed thoroughly studied could other watchmen, he addresses them under the poetical

• In some places of the East, particularly Persia and Hindostan, description of, “ Ye that make mention of the Lord,"

watchmen are included among the officers that compose the housei.e., ye whose watch word is the name of Jehovah. The hold establishment of the grandees, and one of them (the number other instance is in Psalm cxxxiv, the whole of which, as

being generally four, corresponding to the watches of the night) is

stationed near the bed of his master to guard it, and be ready, whenis justly observed by Bishop Lowth, is nothing more ever he requires it, to tell him how far the night is advanced. Such than the alternate cry of two different divisions of the

officers, we are told by Josephus, were in the court of Ahasuerus.

For on that night on which the king could not sleep, and on which watch. The first watch addresses the second, remind- he called for the records of his kingdom, and there was read over ing them of their duty; the second answers by a solemn to him the conspiracy which Mordecai had discovered; the histo

rian adds, " the king bade the stribe who was reading stop, and bay. blessing. The address and the answer seem both to be

ing inquired of thuse that were appointed for the purpose, sehat a set form, which each division proclaimed aloud at hour of the night it was, and having been informed it was already

day, he ordered, that if they found any of his friends were already stated intervals to notify the time of night:

come and standing before the court, they should tell him, that he First band of watchmen.—“ Bless ye the Lord, all might instantly bestow some reward on Mordecai.“

ós the

render them; we do not say that they were as clear as led captive only by putting forth an unusual effort of
if they had been sealed by the teaching of the Spirit. subtlety and power.
He prayed frequently, if not habitually, in his family, To a man of such a character, a visitation like that
and occasionally with some of the more seriously dis- of cholera could not but be peculiarly alarming, viewing
posed anongst his neighbours, by whom we understood it as the judgment of God against a guilty people, him-
bim to be regarded as excelling in devotional exercise. self the guiltiest of all; and being well aware that he
The public ordinances of grace he seemed to appreciate, was one of the likeliest victims of the disease, and that
and to observe them with self-application. His mental disease to him was almost certain death. When the
working and experience were marked and striking, his scourge began to be severely felt, he was, in common
convictions of guilt were overwhelming, his desires for with others, slightly indisposed, (sickness of greater or
salvation intense.

less severity being then so prevalent, that I suppose I The man we have described was no hypocrite, no was almost a solitary instance of entire exemption.) antinomian, no scoffer, no formalist. How many are He was afraid, and his fear of death being apparently there who stand well in their own eyes, and in the eyes stronger than his fear of sin, he betook himself to ardent of the Christian world, of whom it would be hard, after spirits as a remedy or preventive of disease. Had he the most painful search, to find as much good to say as anticipated the hazard of indulging to excess, he would we have said of him. Nevertheless, he was a sinner- undoubtedly have shrunk from the poisoned cup, but le the slave of sin—of such sin as, if a man indulge," he probably imagined that the very solemnity of such a cannot enter the kingdom of God.” He was a drunkard. season would serve as a salutary restraint and suffiHe did not daily, indeed, put the inebriating cup to his cient safeguard. He tampered with temptation; he lips, for he often abstained for weeks together; but then, touched, he drank, he was overcome. Intoxication ever and again, he returned in a time of temptation, confirmed the previous symptoms of complaint into " like the dog to his vomit, and the sow that was wash- malignant disease, and he lay stretched on a bed from ed to her wallowing in the mire.” He thus enjoyed the which he was never to rise. Of all the sufferers, none pleasure of sin for a season; and when the revel was found a smaller share of sympathy than he. By the ended, he was “ of all men most miserable.” We have sober and respectable, he had been despised as a drunkthen seen him pacing up and down his apartment the ard; by the thoughtless and profligate, he must have image of wretchedness. He could not work, he could been laughed at as a hypocrite. By all, he was now not read, he could not walk abroad, nor find diversion condemned as a self-destroyer, who for bis folly defrom his grief and dismay. For days in succession he served to die ; nor had he any family, for whose sake trembled in the presence of an angry God God, whose an interest might have been excited in himself. To us, house then he dared not enter, whose Word he had not again, he was the most interesting of all the patients, courage to open, whose throne of grace he would not and his life the most precious of all for his own soul's sake. venture to approach. His only resource was to beseech At any other time, the information of his sickness, others that they would pray for him, and their assistance sickness so fatal-sickness so procured, would have he most piteously craved. A self-condemned and re- been a dreadful stroke, bringing as it did a death-blow lapsed offender," he stood afar off and smote upon his to the fondly cherished hope of seeing “ him that bad breast," and it was long before he had confidence to the legion sitting at the feet of Jesus, and in his right present the petition, “ God be merciful to me a sinner.” mind.” But then there was no time for thought, and Anew he resolved, repented, supplicated, strove, resist- unexpected distresses had become so frequent, as to ed the tempter, and seemed for a while to “ abstain render them the subject of daily expectation. I repairfrom all appearance of evil ;" but ere another moon ed to his house, and found him anxiously looking for bad run her rapid course, he was the same guilty and my arrival. I learned with regret, that he had refused trembling wretch again, the prey of miserable remorse, the advice of the medical attendant, and was resolved well-nigb the victim of despair.

to receive no medicines ; without, at the same time, No peculiarity of circumstances can form an excuse being otherwise careless in the use of such means as for any vice; and yet it was easy to see that to this might avail for his recovery. All means, however, he temptation he was peculiarly exposed. He had served regarded as useless, having no expectation of being refor many years in the army, at a time when he had pro- stored to health ; and even had he looked on recovery bably not laid to heart the concerns of his soul, and had as possible, he received the stroke as an immediate there contracted habits which it was difficult for him judgment from God, which He alone could remove. now to lay aside. His long skeleton frame bore marks So strong was his conviction that death had found bim, of the emaciating influence of Southern suns, by expo- that although tremblingly afraid to die, he seemed to sure to which, bis system had been so enervated as to have ceased from all anxiety to live. But if he was cause a craving for excitement which he had not moral careless of a body which must inevitably perish, he was vigour sufficient to resist. Finding by sad experience all the more earnest for his soul which he felt to be inthe weakness of his firmest resolutions, ne thought of capable of death. In this respect he afforded a proof, uniting himself to a Temperance Society, and had he seen that strength of mental desire might easily rise superior bis way clearly, he would have counted light any sacri- to that lethargic disposition to which many of the pafice it might have cost. But he reasoned thus :-“Itients yielded. Another instance of the same kind ocmake resolutions now, and when I break them I am curred in the case of a female, who died, if I remember almost distracted with a sense of guilt ; if I shall bind rightly, on the same night. In a state of much weakmyself by this solemn promise, I may be tempted sooner ness, I was surprised, not at the readiness merely, but or later to break it too, and if ever that should happen the eagerness and avidity with which she took the meit is all over with me, I should be driven to despair, dicines given her. I remarked it to her husband, who I could not live ; however advisable such a step may had been most regardless of her happiness in health, be for others, it is too hazardous for me, I cannot ven- but nursed her now with ceaseless and unwearied atture it." If his power of acting had borne any propor- tention, and I shall not soon forget the earnestness of tion to his power of reasoning, his character would have his look, and the emphasis of his voice, when he replied, been not merely consistent with itself, but superior to “ She has a strong desire to live."

Whatever may most.

As it was, his knowledge will probably be ac- have been the spring of this desire, it served to prove counted an enhancement of his sin, and he will be con- that the working of the mind might triumph over the dermed by many as doubly criminal, because “ he knew weakness of the body; and that the indifference to bis Lord's will and did it not.” For ourselves, we things eternal, so generally manifested, was not attributrather wished to regard him as one whom Satan had able to disease. And so it was in the case of the india

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