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with respect to myself, although a release from further service on this side the water would have been acceptable to my own mind, yet, through adorable mercy, I was favoured to know a centering in quiet resignation to the Divine will; not doubting, but that in due time, way would be made for such release. Fourth-day, no answer being received to the note to the privy counsellor, a second note was forwarded; his indisposition continuing, placed me in a trying situation, as it respected my intended companion ; although I believed I clearly saw, if I kept in the patience, way would be made for an interview. Fifth-day, a reply to the note to the privy counsellor was received, appointing Seventh-day for the interview with him; and a note from the secretary of state for the home department, appointing the afternoon of Seventh-day for our interview with him. What a fresh call was this to unite with the Psalmist, in the pathetic language, “Good is the Lord, and worthy to be praised,” and patiently waited upon. Seventh-day, we waited on the privy counsellor, who received us respectfully, allowing a full opportunity for laying before him the various subjects that arose in our minds; we acquainted him with the agreeable manner we had been received by the different policemagistrates, and the willingness they had manifested to unite in endeavouring to further such measures, which the higher authorities should see right to adopt, for remedying the evils I had laid before them: and that to effect this desirable reformation, the hands of the magistrates required in some way to be strengthened; well assured as I was, if there was a waiting on the part of those who were to strengthen their hands, for Divine wisdom to direct them in applying a remedy, and a willingness to move under its influence, Divine strength would be afforded to rise above the reproach of the libertine part of the people.
My way, after this opportunity, opened to make efforts towards my leaving for the Continent; and we proceeded to the foreignoffice, to procure passports. Agreeably to appointment, we waited on the secretary of state for the home department, who gave us a full opportunity to relieve our minds. I had prepared a card with the names of the different police-magistrates we had called upon, which we presented to the privy counsellor and secretary of
we also presented to the bishops, the members of the privy-council, the secretary of state, and each of the magistrates, à work on the principles of Friends, which appeared to be well received. I came away desirous of being preserved from anxiety, as to the result of my many secret baptisms, both before and during, the prosecution of this short but humiliating engage
First-day morning, 20th of 6th month, attended Hoddesdon meeting; walked to Hertford, attended their afternoon meeting. Second-day, proceeded with my dear wife to Hitchin ; then pro
ceeded by mail to Sheffield. Fourth-day, to Barnsley ; some outward affairs there claimed my attention, which brought me under fresh exercise of mind, fearing I should become improperly involved in them. Earnest were my cries, whilst on my way there, for preservation from any of the wiles of the evil power; to escape which, I was strengthened to make some temporal sacrifices.
First-day morning, attended meeting at Sheffield ; then taking leave of my dear daughter and grand-children, accompanied by my son-in-law John Heppenstall, I proceeded to Doncaster; attended their evening meeting. Second-day, whilst at my breakfast, I was seized with a violent attack of spasmodic affection in my throat, which appeared to alarm my friends : this so enfeebled my bodily strength, that I feared being able to proceed on my journey; but feeling the necessity now laid upon me to press forward, I was made willing to commit my enfeebled body to the care of Him, who is abundantly able to renew strength, and give ability to accomplish all he requires of us. ceeded to Thorn: on our arrival at the steam-boat office, and inquiring for my luggage, which had been sent forward by the coach, I was assured it was in the steam-boat. On landing at Hull, and inquiring for my luggage, it was not to be found in the boat; nor any account of it could be obtained. This involved me in considerable embarrassment, fearing it should prove the means of our losing our passage in the next vessel sailing for Hamburgh. After considerable exertion on the part of my friends, it was traced to an out-building at an inn on the road, where it had been left by the coachman.
FIFTH-DAY evening, my kind companion Thomas Christy and myself proceeded on board the Laurel, Captain Morgan ; and after a passage of three days we were favoured to land safely at Hamburgh. On Second-day morning, soon after our landing, I proceeded to Altona, where I called upon an old acquaintance. On his hearing of my views of wintering in Petersburgh, he proposed introducing to me a friend of his, who termed himself a primitive Catholic, and who had been residing in Petersburgh a considerable time. The prospect of such an interview at first appeared desirable ; but I soon felt in my own mind, I had not sufficiently weighed the proposal; for whilst the messenger was gone to invite their friend to give me his company, it came out, this person had been banished from Russia, in consequence of his religious principles clashing with the established religion of the country, and his having brought over to himself numerous followers, as well as published some works obnoxious to the established clergy. This account alarmed me not a little, not knowing how I might be drawn out into conversation by him, and what might result to myself, should he keep up a correspondence with those there who were his followers. I felt so fully convinced of the necessity of my remaining ignorant altogether of his situation, both here and there, that I begged of my friends on no account to encourage a disposition in their friend to give me the least information on either of these heads. From a fear I should be in danger some way or other of being involved in difficulty, by my continuing in his company, if I did not take the greatest possible care, I therefore, in as handsome a manner as I was capable of, refused his kind offer of introduction to his friends at Petersburgh, and soon left him again, thankful that I continued as ignorant at our separation as to any detail from himself, relative to occurrences in his case, either there or here, as when we first met.
Leaving the residence of my kind friend, it appeared to me, if I acted consistently with my duty, I must call upon the police-master who arrested me when here before, and committed me to prison, (whereby my bodily health sustained some injury,) and to give him my hand of love, for I felt nothing but love towards him as a man; this I accordingly did. He received my hand with marks of kindness. I also called upon the governor, who welcomed me again to Altona. Thirdday, accompanied by my kind friend Thomas Christy, we proceeded to the senate-house to call upon the chief magistrate; we were received with great respect by the different officers of the state, and were introduced to him, although he had many persons with him, and others waiting in an anti-room, also crowds of people at the entrance, waiting to be admitted to him. At the sight of us, his countenance manifested the pleasure which our meeting once more afforded him, and I could
it was mutual: he suspended his business to give us some account of the state of things amongst them, since my first visit to Hamburgh; saying, with apparent satisfaction marked by his expressions, that improvement in morality was making progress in the city ; that twelve young women were about leaving the penitentiary, some to return to their own homes, and others to service; and in order that such as had no parents might be sheltered from the danger of falling into the like temptations again, a house was provided to receive them on leaving the penitentiary, and work provided for them, until suitable situations could be found for them ; which house was solely under the management of some of the respectable female inhabitants ; and he added, that hopes were entertained of further improvements taking place. I had previously heard a similar report, and also that some progress was made in the better passing of the First-day. Previously to our landing, papers were brought on board our vessel, by an officer of the police, for the regulation of the behaviour of the sailors on shore, which produced no little cheering in my mind, hoping, from this circumstance, something good was at work at Hamburgh; and however slow it may advance, yet, if it keeps proceeding, hopes may be entertained, that in time this improvement will become yet more conspicuous. Feeling tender of the time of the magistrate, and of the time and feelings of the numerous persons waiting to have a hearing, we concluded to withdraw, and make him another call. At our parting he furnished us with an order to inspect their new establishment for the reception of the sick, presenting us each with a handsome engraving of Cuxhaven, the lighthouse, bathingrooms, &c. which I cheerfully accepted, from a belief that he designed it as a token of his respect. Understanding that the old senator on Hamburgh Burgh had been removed by death since I was last here, and the power of remedying the evils still existing on the burgh now rested with his son, as senator and bailiff of the burgh: feeling my mind drawn to make him a visit, I found I must either cheerfully give up to it, or endanger my incurring the displeasure of that Almighty power, who never yet had failed
to be strength to me in seasons of the greatest weakness : I therefore informed my dear companion, Thomas Christy, how it was
Fourth-day, Thomas Christy and myself, accompanied by Morris Birkbeck, 'of Hamburgh, proceeded to his residence on the burgh; but he was from home. The task of paying him this visit, was so truly humiliating to the creaturely part in me, that I would gladly have excused myself from any further attempt to see him ; but a mode of procedure like this, I was soon fully satisfied would not prove likely to secure for me, that future aid and assistance, which, from the nature and extent of my religious prospects, I should stand in great need of from Israel's Shepherd; I therefore endeavoured to ascertain when he was most certain to be at home ; which being done, we left a message, proposing to wait upon him at a time likely to be the most suitable.
Whilst I was on a religious visit to the Continent of Europe before, I was informed there were pleasure-gardens of considerable extent in the neighbourhood of Altona, which the proprietor was in the practice of setting open the whole of the First-day of the week for the amusement of the public; which had a tendency to draw multitudes of persons from their homes, to herd together in the drinking-houses in the neighbourhood, and to neglect the attendance of a place of religious worship. This subject took such hold of my mind, that I was led to apprehend I should not acquit myself faithfully, either towards my great and good Master, or the proprietor of these pleasure-gardens, unless I was willing, when the way clearly opened for it, to make him a visit on the occasion. Although I felt myself at times weighed down with exercise, when the subject came before me on a former occasion, yet the way never opened with clearness to obtain an interview when I left Altona before.
On our leaving the residence of the police-master at Hamburgh Burgh, I told my companion, Thomas Christy, how it had fared with me when here before, relative to the proprietor of these pleasure-gardens; and that I believed now was the acceptable time for me to make an attempt to obtain an interview with him : we therefore proceeded to his house ; but on inquiry found he was gone to business: this circumstance of our not finding him at home, as I had hoped at this early hour in the morning, for the moment discouraged me, fearing an opportunity with him in his countinghouse might not be attended with that quietness of mind I was so desirous of finding him in. We however proceeded to his counting-house, where I had hoped to find him in a room alone ; but we were introduced to him amidst numerous other persons, who gazed upon us, I suppose on account of our keeping on our hats. On requesting an interview with him he readily consented, but did not leave his desk, as I expected he would have done ;