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last night in the thought that the lady's And then her voice dying away in kour was approaching.
murmurs inarticulate, I looked througto
the key-hole, and saw her on her knees, PAST TEN O'CLOCK. her face, though not towards lified I NEVER longed in my life for any- up, as well as hands, and these folded, thing with fo much impatience, as to deprecating, I suppose, that gloomy lee my charmer. She has been stirring, tyrant's curse. it seems, these two hours.
I could not help being moved. Dorcas just now tapped at her door, • My dearest life! admit me to your to take her morning commands.
presence but for two minutes, and She bad none for ber, was the an confirm your promised pardon; and fwer.
may lightning blast me on the spot, if She desired to know, If she would ' I offer any thing but my penitence, not breakfast?
at a shrine so sacred !-I will afterA fullen and' low-voiced negative 'wards leave you for the whole day; received Dorcas,
" and till to-morrow morning; and I will go myself.
then attend you with writings, all
ready to fign, a licence obtained, or Three different times tapped I at - if it cannot, a minister without one. the door; but had no answer.
« This once believe me! When you Perinit me, dearest creature, to en • see the reality of the danger that gave quire after your health.
• occasion for this your unhappy re• have not been seen to-day, I am im • fentment, you will think less hardly patient to know how you do.'
And let me heseech you to Not a word of answer; but a deep perfonn a promise on which I made a figli, even to fobbing.
reliance not altogether ungenerous.' . Let me beg of you, Madam, to : I cannot see you! Would to Hea
accompany me up another pair of ven I never had! If I write, that's • stairs You'll rejoice to see what a ( all I can do.' happy escape we have all had.'
• Let your writing then, my dearest A happy escape indeed, Jack!-For • life, confirm your promile : and I the fire bad scorched the window-board, o will withdraw in expectation of it.' finged the hangings, and burnt through the flit.deal lining of the window
PAST ELEVEN O'CLOCK. jambs.
She rung her bell for Dorcas; and, • No answer, Madam!--Am I not with her door in her hand, only halfworthy of one word?-Is it thus opened, gave her a billet for me.
you keep your promise with me? "How did the dear creature look, • Shall I not have the favour of your . Dorcas?'
company for two minutes' [Only • She was dresled. She turned het for two minutes] 'in the dining-room?" • face quite from me; and fighed, as
• Hem!'-Aod a deep figh!-were ( if her heart would break.' all the answer.
Sweet creature!'-I kissed the wet • Answer me but how you do! An- wafer, and drew it from the
with • Iwer me but that you are well! Is my breath.
this the forgiveness that was the con These are the contents.- No inscrip• dition of my obedience?'
tive' Sir!' No · Mr. Lovelace!"
Cannot see you: nor will I, if I inhuman, barbarous, and all that is can help it. Words cannot exbate and treacherous!—be gone from • press the anguish of my soul on your my door! - Nor teaze thus a poor • baseness and ingratitude. creature, entitled to protection, not “If the circumstances of things are outrage."
such, that I can have no way • I fee, Madam, how you keep your • conciliation with those who would • word with me!-If a sudden impulse, • have been my natural protectors from • the effects of an unthought-of acci. • such outrages, but through you, [The • denr, cannot be forgiven
only inducement I can have to stay a " the dreadful weight of a father's • moinent longer in your knowledge] * curse, thus in the very letter of it'' pen and ink must be, at present, the
only means of communication be. mine are superscribed by her married tween us.
name. She would not open her door Vileft of men! and molt detefta to receive them; left I mould be neap ble of plotters! how have I deserved it, I suppose: fo Dorcas was forced to • from you the mocking indignitiesc put them under the door; (after copy• But no more-Only for your own ing them for thee) and thence to take • fake, wish not, at least for a week to the answers. Read them, if thou wilt,
come, to see the undefervedly injured at this place. . and is fulied
* CLARISSA HARLOWE.' ! TO MRS. LOVELACI. So thou feeft, nothing could have
INDEED, my deareft life, yote Good me in stead, but this
plot of Tom
carry this matter too far. What tinson and her uncle! To what a pretty • will the people below, who suppose país, neyertheless, have I brought my. us one as to the ceremony, think of felfi-Had Cæfar been such a fool, he " so great a nicenels? Liberties fo inhad never passed the rubicon. But 6 nocent! the occafiop so accidental! after he bad passed it, had he retreated • You will expose yourself as well se infetti, intimidated by a senatorial as me-Hitherto they know nothing ediet, what a pretty figure would he of what has passed. And what inhave made in history!- might have • deed bas passed, to occasion all this known, that to attempt a robbery, s resentmenti-I am sure, you will and put a person in bodily fear, is as not, by a breach of your word of punihable as if the robbery had been honour, give me reason to conclude, actually committed.
that, had I not obeyed you, I could But not 10 fee ber for a week!— Dear I have faired no worse. pretty coul! how the anticipates me in • MoA fincerely do I repent the of. kvery thing! The counsellor will have ' fence given to your delicacy-But finished the writings to-day or to-mor • muft I, for fo accidental an occurrow, at furtheft: the licence with the
• rence, be branded by such fhocking parfon, or the parson without the li
names ?-Vilept of men, and most dea cence, must be also procured within the • teftable of plotters, are hard words! Dext four-and-twenty hours; Pritch • From the pen of such a lady too. ard is as good as ready with his inden
• If you step up another pair of tures tripartite: Tomlinson is at hand is stairs, you will be convinced, that, with a favourable answer from her une ! however deteftable I may be to you,
I cle-Yet not to see ber for a week!
am no plotter in this affair. Dear fweet soul!-Her good angel is • I must insitt upon seeing you, in gone a journey: is truanting at least. I order to take your directions upon But nevertheless, in thy week's time, « some of the subjects we talked of or in much less, my charmer, I doubt . yesterday in the evening. not to compleat my triumph!
: All that is more than necessary is But whai vexes me of all things, is, • too much. I claim your promised that such an excellent creature thould • pardon, and wish to plead it on my break her word:-Fie, fie, upon her! knees. -But nobody is absolutely perfect ! • I beg your presence in the dining'Tis buman to err, but not to persevere room for one quarter of an hour, -I hope my charmer cannot be inhu • and I will then leave you for the sban!
I am, my deareji life, jour
ever-Adoring and traly penitent, LETTER II.
"LOVELACE, KR. LOVELACE, TO JOHN BEL•
Will not see you. I carnot see
you, I have no directions to give you.
Let Providence decide us before I went out, by the inter • for me as it pleases. tanciabip of Dorcas; -for which reason • The more I reflect upon your vile
TO MR. LOVELACE.
ness, your ingrateful, your barba
TO MR. LoveLACE.
The more you teaze me, the • You are the last person, whose
worse it will be for you. judgment I will take upon what is or « Time is wanted to consider whe. is not carried too far in matters of de. • ther I ever should think of you at all. cency:
At present, it is my fincere wish, 'Tis grievous to me to write, or " that I may never more see your face. even to think of you at present. Urge • All that can afford you the least « me no more then. Once more, I Thadow of favour from me, arises • will not see you.' Nor care I, now • from the hoped-for reconciliation
you have made me vile to myself, with my real friends, not my Judas what other people think of me.' ' protector.
I am careless at present of confe. TO MRS. LOVELACE.
quences. I hate myself; and who is
• it I have reason to value? -Not the AGAIN, Madam, I remind you • man who could form a plot to disof your promise: and beg leave
grace his own hopes, as well as a • to say, I'ingist upon the performance · poor friendless creature, (made friend6 of it.
• less by himself) by insults not to be • Remember, deareft creature, that
• thought of with patience.'
« TO MRS. LOVELACE.
MADAM, • I cannot reproach myself with
Will go to the Commons, and any-thing that deserves this high re
proceed in every particular as if ** fentment.
s I had not the misfortune to be under "I own that the violence of my pase your displeasure. * fion for you might have carried me I mult infift upon it, that however • beyond ft bounds But that your « faulty my passion on so unexpected an • commands and adjurations had power incident, made me appear to a lady • over me at such a moment, I hum- of your delicacy, yet my compliance
bly presume to say, deserves some with your entreaties at such a mo• confideration,
• ment [As it gave you an instance of • You enjoin me not to see you for a
your power over me, which few men 6 week. If I have not your pardon could have shewn] ought, duly con. before Captain Tomlinson comes to • fidered, to entitle me to the effeas of • town, what shall I say to him?
- that folemn promise which was the • I beg once more your presence in o condition of my obedience. • the dining-room. By my soul, Ma
. I hope to find you in a kinder, and, dam, I must see you.
• I will'lay, jusler disposition on my • I want to consult you about the li. - return. Whether I get the licence, - cence, and other particulars of great or not, let me beg of you to make ' importance. The people below think
the foon you have been pleased to bid • us married; and I cannot talk to you me hope for, to-morrow morning. upon such subjects with the door be
This will reconcile every-thing, and
• make me the happiest of men. for Heaven's fake, favour me « The settlements are ready to fign, ' with your presence for a few minutes:
or will be by night. " and I will leave you for the day. • For Heaven's sake, Madam, do
• If I am to be forgiven, according not carry your resentment into a dirto your promise, the earlier forgive
• pleasure so disproportionate to the « ness will be most obliging, and will « offence. For that would be, to ex. • fave great pain to yourself as well as
pose us both to the people below; to your truly contrite and affiliated
. and, what is of infinite more conse• LOVELAGB.' quence to us, to Captain Tomlin
• fon. Let us be able, I beseech you, gave it the honour of a re-perusal; and • Madam, to assure him, on his next this revived the subje& with me, with • vifit, that we are one.
which I had resolved not to trust my• As I have no hope to be permitted self. 'to dine with you, I shall not return I remember, that the dear creature,' . till evening: and then, I presume to in her torn answer to my proposals, • say, I expeet (Your promise autho- says, That condescenfion is not meanness. 'rizes me to use the word] to find you She better knows how to make this
difposed to bless, by your consent for out, than any mortal breathing. Co• to-morrow, your adoring,
descension indeed implies dignity: and • LOVELACE.'
dignity ever quas there in ber conde. fcenfion. Yet such a dignity, as gave
grace to the condescenfion; for there WHAT pleasure did I propose to was no pride, no infult, no apparent take, low to enjoy the sweet confusion superiority, indicated by it. This, in which I expected to find her, while Miss Howe confirms to be a part of her all was fo recent! - But the muft, general character*. fhe sball, see me on my return. It I can tell her, how she might behave, were better for berself, as well as for to make me her own for ever. She me, that she had not made so much ado knows she cannot fly me. She knows about nothing. I must keep my anger the must see me sooner or later; the alive, leit it link into compassion. Love sooner the more gracious.-I would and compaffien, be the provocation ever allow her to resent; [Not because the so great, are hard to be separated: liberties I took with her require refentwhile anger converts what would be ment, were she not a CLARISSA; but pits without it, into resentment. No- as it becomes her particular niceness to thing can be lovely in a man's eye, resent:) but would the Mew more love with which he is thoroughly displeased, than abborrence of mein her resentment;
I ordered Dorcas, on putting the last would she feem, if it were but to feem, billet under the door, and finding it to believe the fire no device, and all that taken up, to tell her, that I hoped an followed merely accidental; and deanswer to it before I went out. scend, upon it, to tender expoftulation,
Her reply was verbal,' Tell him that and upbraiding for the advantage I • I care not whither be goes, nor what would have taken of her surprize; and • be does.'--And this, re-urged by Dor- would she, at last, be satisfied (as well cas, was all she bad to say 10 me. The may) that it was attended with no
I looked through the key-hole at my further consequence; and place some going by her door, and saw her on her generous confidence in my honour; knees, at her bed's feet, her head and I Power loves to be trusted, Jack;] Í borom on the bed, her arms extended; think I would put an end to all her (Sweet creature, bow I adore ber !) trials, and pay her my vows at the al. and in an agony she seemed to be, sobbing, as I heard at that distance, as if Yet, to have taken such bold steps, her heart would break-By my soul, as with Tomlinson and her uncle-To Jack, I am a pity-ful fellow. Recol. have made such a progress-Belford, lection is my enemy!-Divine excel. Belford, how have I puzzled myself, lence !-Happy with her for so many as well as her!--This cursed avertion days together! Now fo unhappy!-And to wedlock how it has entangled me! for what ? -But she is purity herself. What contradictions has it made me
- And why, after all, 'hould I thus guilty of ! torment-But I must not trust myself How pleasing to myself, to look back with myself, in the humour I am in. upon the happy days I gave her; though
mine would doubiless have been more WAITING here for Mowbray and unmixedly fo, could I have determined Mallory, by whose aid I am to get the to lay aside my contrivances, and to be licence, I took papers out of my pock as fincere all the time, as the deserved et, to divert myself; and thy last popt that I should be ! officiouly the first into my hand. 'I If I find this humour hold but till See Vol. IV. Page 479.
to-morrow morning, (And it has now. Yet have I not always done her jor. Jasted two full hours, and I seem, ine. tice? Why then thy teazing impertithinks, to have pleasure in encouragirig nence ? jt] I will make thee a visit, I think, or However, I forgive thee, Jack get thee to come to me; and then will Since (so much generous love am I ca. I-consult thee upon it.
pable of!) I had rather all the world But the will not trust me. Śhe will should condemn me, than that her chanot confide in my honour. Doubt, in racter should suffer the least impeachthis case, is, defiance. She loves me ment.' not well enough to forgive me gene
The dear creature herself once told Joully. She is so greatly above me! me, that there was a strange mixture in How can I forgive her for a merit so my mind I. mortifying to my pride! She thinks, the I have been called devil and Beelze. knows, she has sold me, that she is above bub, between the two proud beauties: me. These words are still in my ears, I must indeed be a Beelzebub, if I had • Be gone, Lovelace !-My soul is not some tolerable qualities. • above thee, man!—Thou hast a proud But as Mifs Howe says, the suffering• heart to contend with!-My foul is time of this excellent creature is her • above thee, man*.' Miss Howe thinks shining-time g. Hitherto the has done her above me too. Thou, even thou, my nothing but shine. friend, my intimate friend and compa She called me villain, Belford, withnion, art of the same opinion. Then I in these few hours. And what is the fear her as much as I love her.—How Sum of the present argument; but that Mall my pride bear these reflections? My had I not been a villain in her fense of wife (as I have so often said, because it the word, the had not been so much an so often recurs to my thoughts) to be fo angel? much my superior!-Myself to be con Jack, Jack! This midnight atfidered but as the second person in my tempt has made me mad; has utterly own family!-Canit thou teach me to undone me! How can the dear creature bear such a reflection as this !-To tell say, I have made her vile in her own me of my acquisition in her, and that eyes, when her behaviour under such a the, with all her excellences, will be surprize, and her resentment under mine in full property, is a mistake-It such circunstances, have so greatly excannot be ro-For ihall I not be hers; alted her in mine? and not my own?-Will not every act Whence, however, this strange rhapof her duty. (as I cannot deserve it) be fody ? Is it owing to my being bere? a condescenfion, and a triumph over That I am not at Sinclair's ? But if me?..And must I owe it merely to her there be infection in that house, how goodnefs, that she does not despise me? has my beloved escaped it?
-To have her condescend to bear with But no more in this strain! I will my follies !To wound me with an eye fee what her behaviour will be on my af pity!-A daughter of the Harlowes return-Yet already do I begin to apthus to excel the last, and as I have prehend some little linkings, lome little heretofore faid, not the meanest of the retrogradations: for I have just now 2 Lovelaces t-Forbid it!
doubt arisen, wliether, for beroron fake, Yet forbid it not--For do I not now I should with her to forgive me lightly, do I not every moment- see her be or with difficulty ? fore me all over charms, and elegance and purity, as in the struggles of the I am in a way to come at the wilhed. pait midnight? And in these struggles, for licence. heari, voice, eyes, hands, and fenti I have now given every-thing bements, so greatly, fo gloriously con tween my beloved and me a full contifiitent with the character she has su deration; and my puzzle is over. What Stained from her cradle to the present has brought me to a speedier determihour?
nation, is, that I think I have found out But what advantages do I give thee? what the means by the week's distance
* See Vol. IV. Letter XXXV.
See Vol. III. Letter XXIX.