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and these difficulties added to the lazy and unthinking habit I had so long indulged, made me at length forbear going any more to hear him.
• I have already hinted that my mother's circumstances were too narrow for the expence I had already put her to, and my father was still more unable to give her any assistance in it, though he was not a little pleased at the great progress he was told I had made for my years. Her hopes and mine were, indeed, that I might by that means introduce myself as a tutor into some good family, and save her all farther charges. But I had been so far neglected in the other parts of my education, had so little address or politeness, and knew so little of the world, that I could not look upon in yself as fit for such an ein-. ployment among persons above the common rank, and my pride would not let me aim at any thing below it; so that instead of trying as I might, and ought to have done, I was rather become careless and indifferent about it, and I was indeed both too young and too naturally unfit for it. Notwithstanding which,some of my acquaintance, unknown or unde fired, got me into a middling family, where I was upon somewhat better terms than with my old counsellor.'
In this new station, however, he was not more fortunale than during his residence in the colleges. His pupil was averse to all literary improvement, and it was soon found that Mr. **** was of no use in the family; so that he was very civilly difmissed.
He then got into another family, in which he had the care of two young gentlemen; with whom he was not a jot more successful. Here the lady of the manfion formed designs upon bis virtue, which he tells us he had vanity, not virtue, enough to oppose and frustrate. The consequence was a dismission from this second employment,
He now repaired to Avignon ; where his poverty, added other mortifications, induced him to have recourse to his old stratagem of clothing himself with some false merit for want of a great one,'-his own words—and of pretending to be a sufferer for Religion, and accusing his father of having used him severely on that account: all which was too easily listen’d to by his acquaintance, especially among the friars, who bestowed on him so much of their pity and admiration as foothed his vanity, but did not answer the main end proposed, an introduction into some new family as a tutor.
From Avignon he went to the fair at Baucaire, a city in Languedoc on the Rhine; where he endeavoured to borrow moncy of some merchants, his acquaintance, but was refused,
This made him determine to return home, to his mother; tho' he was too bare both of money and cloaths to undertake so long a journey. In this dilemma he found means to procure a pals or certificate, at a proper office, fignifying that he was a young student in theology, of Irish extraction, that he had left the country for the sake of religion, and was then going on a pilgrimage to Rome. His method to equip himself in a pilgrim's garb was fingular enough, and shews what a fine bold youth he was. This garb consisted in a long staff, handsomely turned, and a short leathern or oil-cloth cloak; and such an equipage he had observed, set up in a neigbouring chapel, as a monument, by soine wandering pilgrim, come to the end of his journey. This chapel being dedicated to a miraculous saint, was never without a number of devotees, who prayed and burnt tapers before the image of the saint; but this did not deter our adventurer from openly going in, and taking away both staff and cloak, at noon day. Away marched he with his prize into a private corner, where he threw the cloak over his shoulders, and with a sanctified gravity, walked off, with the staff in his hand, till he got out of the city.
· Being thus accoutred, and furnished with a pass to my mind, I began at all places to beg my way in a fluent Latin ; accosting only clergymen, or persons of figure, by whom I could be understood, and was most likely to be relieved ; and I found them mostly lo generous and credulous, that had I had the least propensity to provide for hereafter, I might easily have saved a good deal of money, and put myself into a much more creditable garb, before I had gone through a score or two of miles; but such was my vanity and extravagance, that as soon as I had got what I thought a sufficient viaticum, I begged no more, but viewed every thing worth seeing, then retired to some inn, where I spent my money as freely as I got it, not without some such aukward tokens of generosity, as better suited with my vanity than my present circumstances. The nearer I drew to my native place, the more irresolute I grew, whether I should pay a visit to my mother, or continue my journey to Rome; the concern I knew The must be in about me, strongly inclined me to the former, but my uncommon mean garb, which was become only more scandalous by the length of my journey, made me fo ashamed to be feen either by her, or any of my friends, that I fully resolved on the latter. I had, in order to it, wheeled about to the left, to leave the place at some twenty or thirty miles distance, and was got into a small town, where I little expected to be known, when venturing on the Sunday into the church, at the time of high mass, I was surprised to see some persons, especially two or three gentlewomen, whose chief residence was at my native çity,
but who it seems were spending part of the summer at that place, and who, in spight of my being thus transmogriñed, did easily recall me to mind, and gave me to understand they did. I was so Shocked at it, that I left the church at the most folemn part of the service, when they were most intent on their devotions, not caring to stand an examen from them, and made the best of my way through private paths, to avoid being caught if pursued. Whether I was so I know not, but the fight of them made fuch a strong impresfion on my mind, and raised such an earnest desire in mc of seeing once more that beloved city, especially considering that it was now imposible to conceal either my way of travelling, or mean appearance from my friends, that as soon as I thought myself out of the reach of a pursuit, I took the direct road homeward, with an intent to go and satisfy my poor anxious mother, before she got the intelligence from other hands, and consult with her, whether I should pursue my journey to Rome, or get into any other way the liked better. And I only took care to enter the city in the dusk of the evening, and got to her house unperceived by any but those of the fainily.
My poor mother was glad to see me, though sorry to behold the mean garb I was in, and failed not, though with her usual tenderness, to chide me, for having made so bad an use of the opportunities, she supposed I had had, of pushing my fortune, which, she knew as well as I, was but too much owing to my indolence. Much more reason would she have had to chide me, had she known how much of my time I had trifled away during the last year and a half I had been absent from her; but that I concealed froin her, and the good woman was fometimes inclined to think, that my too great eagerness after my studies had made me neglect every thing else. But I was greatly surprised at the end of two or three days, during which I had kept as much from fight as I could, to hear her propose to me, since I had found out fo cheap, safe, and easy a way of travelling, to go and pay a visit to my father, who then lived some hundreds of miles from her, and try what I could get him to do for me ; and I had the more reason to wonder at her proposal, because she knew, as well as ), that a tradesman of our town, who had been with him about two or three years before, had brought us a very indifferent account of his circumstances. This made me suspect that a cousin of mine, and a great favourite of hers, whose fortune was in no wise suitable to his high spirit, had put that strange project in her head, that I might be far enough out of the way of obstructing her kindness to him. Whether there was any real foundation for my fulpicion, I cannot say, but the surprize the obferved me to be in at her proposal, made fuch an impression upon her, that the forgot nothing that could affure me
pf her maternal and unalterable tenderness, alledging that the only wanted to be better satisfied of the condition
ту in, than she was from the report of the tradesman above men, tioned, and adding, that in case I found it not to my liking, and him as tender as I might expect, the charged me expressly to leave him, and come back to her as foon as possible, and by no means to stay longer than a year from her, unless I could convince her that it was very much to my advantage.
· Being thus far fatisfied of her maternal affection, I easily consented to take the journey, having by that time contracted an inclination to ramble and fee new countries, and as it was a long and dangerous one, we thought it improper to alter my dress, the meanness of which would rather be a safeguard ; howa ever, she thought fit to sew up a small quantity of gold to my cloaths, which, the faid, would serve to buy me some better ones, when I came near the end of my journey. My staff and cloak, with the addition of a long loose gown, made of a light kind of black buckram to cover the rest from dust, were sent by: a man to a place on the road, about four miles off ; and very early in the morning I took a forrowful leave of my mother, and she of me, and the repeated her charge to me to return to her, if I did not find things to my fatisfaction. When I came to the place where my pilgrim's dress waited for me, I put it on, and went on not without a heavy heart, though without the least. doubt of my mother's constant affection. My direct rout was through the first great university where I had began to study theology, so that I was forced to wheel about to avoid it, for fear of being known. All the rest of the way I was an utter. stranger to, and I met frequently with some objects that made me shrink, though it was a considerable high road ; now and then at some lonely place lay the carcase of a man rotting and stinking on the ground by the way fide, with a rope about his neck, which was fastened to a post about two or three yards distance, and these were the bodies of highwaymen, or rather of soldiers, failors, mariners, or even galley-slaves, disbanded after the peace of Reswick, who, having neither home nor occupation, used to infest the roads in troops, plunder towns and villages, and when taken were hanged at the county-town by dozers, or even scores fometimes, after which their bodies were thus exposed along the highway in terrorem. At other places one met with crosses, either of wood or stone, the highest not above two or three feet, with inscriptions to this purport; "pray for the foul of A. B. or of a stranger that was found mur-' dered on this spot.” Thefe deterring objects made me willing to affociate myself to some fellow-travellers whom I met on the same road; buc fuch was my vanity, that I never renewed the
pilgrim's trade of begging whilst any of my money lasted, but was rather lavish of it on some of them, though I knew not how soon I might feel the want of it; and I had not resumed it long before I met with fuch a mortification as made me heartily repent of my folly. I was to go through the celebrated city of Lyons, abounding with the finest buildings and other curiosities, which I was very desirous to fee; and when I came to one of the gates, was asked by an officer, in a livery like our beadles, whether I wanted a viaticum ? Not knowing the consequence of his question, I answered in the affirmative, and was bid immediately to follow him. I was surprised at the length of the way he led me, and observed several fine churches, palaces, squares, &c. which I stood still to admire, but was not suffered to do fó long; and at length, after about an hour and half's good walking, was told, that that was the opposite gate at which I to go out and pursue my journey; he then clapped a couple of pence into my hand, and told me, that I must not venture back into the city under some severe punishment, and left me quite astonished and unable to reply. As soon as I had recovered myfelf, I began to reflect on my extravagance and disappointment in a most lively manner, but thought it best, however, to follow his advice, rather than expose myself to some shameful treatment, if I attempted to return. What increased my concern was, the fear of finding the same method observed in every great city I came to, but, happily for me, it proved otherwise, and I not only went through them all without molestation, but staid in some of them long enough to view every thing worth seeing, and to converse with men of learning and piety, from whom I received some tokens of their generosity.
· The misfortune was, that my rashness and vanity would not fuffer me to keep within due bounds, but I must set myself off to the highest advantage, by pretending to greater merit and learning than was consistent even with common prudence, as it exposed me to the continual danger of a shameful discovery. I took notice heretofore how little progress I had made in the Greek tongue, rather through the ignorance and neglect of some of my teachers, than want of capacity or application, but now I pretended to be not only master of it, but likewise in some measure of the Hebrew, though I knew not a single letter of the latter, and had only seen some Hebrew books belonging to the Jews of Avignon, by which I just could distinguish that from other characters; the truth is, that neither that nor any of the oriental tongues, nor even the Greek, were much studied by the clergy; so I was not under any great danger on that account, though I own I have been sometimes foiled at the latter, because I commonly addressed myself to the priests, among whom I met,