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creatures ? Their children will interposition of an invisible
away from his neighbors and
came into his house. It was Memoirs of Mr. Samuel Buli. his almost universal practice,
upon such occasions, to rise Messrs. EDITORS,
from his seat, and sideling toThe following is a summary wards a door, repeat in a low account of Mr. Samuel Bull, voice, seemingly in great agitalate of Harwinton, who died tion, the words, I can't, I can'tSeptember 1799, aged 76. and if he could not well get out
of the room would express great Tappears, that in the early uneasiness, and frequently go sa
part of his life, he introduced far as to request or order them family prayer ; and conceived to go home. that he was a Christian : and
In the autumn of 1798, which both he and his wife were per- was about nineteen years after suaded to join the church under his first falling into this state, the care of the Rev. Andrew he for the first time, manifested Bartholomew, the first minister some degree of kindness. Bein the town.
ing a shoe maker, and one day Nearly twenty years before observing a little boy exposed his death, he fell into a state of to the frost without shoes, he such despair, and (as was sup- felt pity for him, and of his own posed,) derangement of mind, accord set himself to make
a as occasioned great trouble in pair, which he accomplished. his family. During two or After this he became more inthree of the first years, he ap- clined to read books on religious peared to make several attempts subjects ; and the awakening against his own life, but was soon spreading in the place, he prevented, sometimes in such began to be solicitous for his an extraordinary manner as in eternal welfare. And though duced a belief of an uncommon his infirmities would not pesmit
him to attend public worship in of his heart; and, as it is hoped, the winter ; yet there is good to a humble submission to the reason to believe that in a few gospel method of salvation. The months he became a humble consequence was, that he beChristian.
came as remarkable for love as In conversation with him the he had been before for the conwriter of this found that Mr. B. trary. His attachment to the was wholly indisposed to attri- Redeemer and his cause-his bute any of his former feelings discoveries of divine truth and to the loss of his reason. He his inward joys were indeed told me that after the first three wonderful. Similar to the apos, years, he laid aside the design tle, who after his conversion was of self-murder entirely : and animated with a degree of zeal also declared that all his conduct proportionate to his former opduring that long time, was the position, Mr. B. felt an uncomfruit of an evil heart left to mon share of ardor in the cause itself-that this was the reason of Christ. He appeared indeed of his being so averse to prayer to love much. and serious conversation. And His humility and self-abhorthis was the cause of his being rence, also appeared peculiar.so unsociable and bitter towards After he was able to attend mankind that he could not public worship, he desired to bear the sight even of his for come to the Lord's table which mer most intimate friends—that he had omitted for more than he generally attempted to over-twenty years, but expressed his come so perverse a disposition, fears that the brethren could but was unable-that it was in not admit so vile a creature as this struggle between the per- he had been to their communion verseness of his heart, and the again. And hence of his own consciousness of propriety, that accord took the first opportunity he so often repeated the words, to speak to them publicly, and I cant, meaning thereby that he in such a manner as abundantly could not bring the feelings of witnessed the sincerity of his his heart to acquiesce in that heart. which was proper, and that the At a sacramental season preconflict was so severe, that the vious to his death, he attended words were pressed from his with seemingly great devotion lips almost without his knowing indeed. A few days after which, what he did.
as he was going to attend a lecAs he was unable to go ture, the following conversation abroad in the winter and early took place between him and a part of the spring, the feelings person who fell into company and exercises of his mind, under with him : the conviction and power of the Q. Was the ordinance comHoly Spirit, were not generally fortable to you? known." It appears, however, A. I never saw such a day in from his own account and that my life. I never attended it so of his children, (his wife having before I never saw God and dicd several years before) that Christ so before. he was brought into great dis- Q. It was then a prccicus tress in view of the sinfulness I season to you?
A. Yes, the best in my life. tian would be left, for so long a
Q. Did the Redeemer appear time in such a state.” To him lovely in himself?
the question was of difficult solu. A. Yes he was new to me, I tion, but as far as this case was had such discoveries and such concerned, there seemed to be joys as I never had before, and a satisfactory answer, at least it I never had such exercises before. was very evident how Mr. B.
Q. You don't mean that your considered himself. discoveries were new in kind, In subsequent and further but only encreased to a great conversation with him, it aper degree than you ever had be-peared to me that I seldom, if fore ?
ever, found plainer marks of sinA. No, they were new in cerity, submission, love, and kind ; I never had any thing growth in grace. And many like it before at the Lord's ta- others have heard him express ble.*
the deepest humility and the Q. But had you not seen the most warm and pathetic acksame God and the same Christ nowledgments of the free and -before-at his table, though not sovereign and distinguishing in so full a degree?
grace of God. Many are wit. A. No~I knew nothing a nessess, with what fervor, zeal, bout God or Christ before at his constancy, and devotion, he table ; they were entirely new spake of the work of God among to me. I never saw any thing us, and upon his own soul. It like it.
seemed sometimes that he laQ. But do you mean that bored 'to communicate someyou never had acquaintance with thing unutterable. And he who God and Christ-till lately? had for nineteen years scarcely
A. Yes I do; my views of gone a rod from his door, was the character of God and of the now willing to travel into distant gospel and divine things are en- parts of the town to attend lectirely new.
tures, and visit his old acquaintQ. But do you think you was ance ; encouraging Christians, not a Christian before your de- proclaiming the grace of God, ranged state of mind ?
and bearing testimony in favor A. If ever I was a Christian, of the glorious work among us. I am not a year old.
But his labors were short. In The foregoing conversation the latter part of September he is verbatim, as taken down in was called away by death. The writing a few days afterward. exercises of his mind were such As the writer had considered as became the great event. On him a Christian previous to his the day of his death his mind derangement, as it was called, was in some degree beclouded. the question had often occur. But the day before, he intimared_" Whether a real Chris- ted not only his willingness,
but bis desire to depart. * If any explanation is here requir- What testimony have we here ed, it may be noticed that this season of the power of religion, of the was in the inonth of July 1799. The only season which his bodily infirmi..
love, grace and condescension tie permitted him to attend after his of our Lord Jesus Christ, and of relief.
I his ability to save to the ubiero
termost ! What an alarm to presence of God. It is presusleeping Christians and mere med that you do not sorrow on professors! What a decided her account, that she is taken testimony of the real truth of from this vale of tears. You the words the carnal mind is en- have no reason to be disturbed mity against God? The same in your mind when you contemprinciple is in every natural plate her present state with deheart, only more restrained.-parted spirits. She gave every Who, that know the Lord Jesus evidence of her friendship to Christ, will not ackowledge, that God and his kingdom, and her in this case was acted out the union to the Lord Jesus, while same heart which they see in living. The weight of the cathemselves, and in every human lamity sustained by surviving creature ; and which would relatives must be greatly diminhave been probably much worse ished by the consideration that in them were it not for the pow- their departed friend has gone er of restraining and converting to eternal rest. What is your grace?
There is room firmly loss is her gain. She is now and feelingly to believe the doc-borne beyond all the toils, pains, trine of man's depravity. The and sorrows of time in which Lord teaches it not only in his she had an unusual share ; yes, word but in the dispensation of she has arrived to where there his Grace; he teaches it in most is no more death, neither sorsolemn accents.
row, nor crying. Let us make our peace with Your worthy parent has been him, by humble submission : removed by a righteous God. that when we die we may as
The arrow was not shot at ran. cend to that “ bless'd abode," dom, which occasioned her death. where we may find all the disci- Not by blind chance, or unmeanplinary scenes of this world to ing fatality was she brought to have terminated for our good ; the grave ; but by a wise, perand where a precious Redeemer fectly wise, and holy proviwill be forever new and com- dence. You hope you love God, pletely entertaining.
and profess to make his glory your first object. All that his hand doth amongst men is to display his perfections.
You A letter 10. a female friend on will then cheerfully submit to
hearing of the death of her his afflictive providences, and mother.
from the consideration that he
reigns you will derive consolaDec. 16, 1805.
tion and joy in the darkest and My FRIEND,
most trying seasons. HAVE lately received the If, as you hope, you are one
sorrowful intelligence of the of God's children, this bereavedeath of your mother. I know ment is designed for your best you must be in great affliction, good, and will be sanctified 10 and feel myself to be in some this end. All things will work measure affected by the provi- together for the good of them dence. I feel for you, and wish that love God, to them who are and pray that you may have the I called according to his purpose.
Whom the Lord loveth, he chas- | ver be made up in the same teneth, and scourgeth every son kind of good. whom he receiveth.
You have lost one of the best Christians, like David, have friends you had upon earth. found it good to be afflicted. Job None but one among all the sons was rendered more eminent in and daughters of men had that grace by reason of his sore af- affection and concern for you. Äictions, and so is every child She was unwearied in her laof God. The Lord doth not af-bors for your good, and both flict willingly, nor grieve the night and day ministered to your children of men ; but if need be, comfort in sickness and distress. he brings his people into the fur- You have lost her society. You nace of affliction, to purify them might improve and feel happy from dross, and make their in her presence. To female graces to shine.
delicacy and modesty, she uni. God in his goodness contin- ted such dignity of deportment úed to your enjoyment an affec- as every where commanded restionate and faithful parent thro' pect. Her discourse was never your forming age, and until you | vain, trifling, or slanderous; but left your father's house to have always seasoned with good sense, a family of your own. Many prudence, and grace. She could children have been left without speak for virtue and for God. the care, attention, and counsel | Her conversation ministered ed. of a fond mother when they ification to those who heard her. most needed them. You see the Her example was instructive ; great difference in this respect, peculiarly so to her children, between your own case and ma- and much so to society. You ny around you. Your mother have been a witness to her dilihad the happiness of living to gence and economy, her sobrisee her daughters comfortably ety and composure of mind, her settled in the world, and her patience and submission in trouonly son to arrive to manhood, ble, her attention to the scripindustrious, steady, and sober. tures, and sacred regard for the It was all for their good. Such sabbath. As she was often deconsiderations, as those now sug- tained from the house of prayer, gested, should console your heart you know how she embraced in this day of trouble, and cause every opportunity to worship you to rejoice and be thankful God with his saints. She seemin the midst of adversity. ed to have the feelings of the
Perhaps you may think, that psalmist, “ I was glad when they though the sentiments now men- said unto me, Let us go up to tioned may diminish your sor- the house of the Lord.” You row; yet there are so many remember her pleasure and joy other considerations calculated at the time of refreshing from to swell the tide of your grief, the presence of the Lord, when that you cannot suppress it. I she saw some of her own chilknow, dear friend, that the cup dren, with a multitude of their which God has given you to companions, seeking after God drink is indeed a bitter cup.- and subscribing to be his. You Your loss is great, and will ne- have seen her aversion to strife
and contention. Her voice was