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to thee in sincerity, solely rely- me, to aggravate my guilt, is,
bad as it was, I carry me through life, and the accepted ;, yea, and have vastly gloomy vale of death, and into added to, and improved it. a blessed eternity.
And the Gracious God ! take from me praise shall all be to God the these wretched possessions, and Father, God the Son, and God make me an heir of that gloria the Holy Spirit, now and for ous inheritance, which is incorAmen."
ruptible, undefiled, and that After this, he often speaks of fadeth not away.” the clear, refreshing views which Lord's-day morning, June he had of God, and sweet com- 6th. How miserable is the munion with him, for a year or guilty conscience! Oh, how am more. Then he was involved I under the dominion of sin ! in great darkness and distress, How cruel the bondage ! Oh, which will appear from the few the heart-piercing thought of following extracts.
its being eternal ! Nothing but “ Lord's-day morning, April discouragement, nothing but 4th, 1790. Without holiness, no wrath present themselves to my man shall see the Lord. Where view. “A fearful looking-for of then shall I appear ? Perhaps I judgment and fiery indignation. have but poor ideas of what ho- solemn, and alarming tho't! liness is ; but I know by woful But, O my soul ! is there not a experience, what its opposite is. God of infinite mercy ? Is not' One look inward shows me the the Saviour yet extending his latter in all its deformity. I yet arms of mercy and inviting you live a most miserable, guilty to come? Then I must retract creature ; and what appears to my saying, that it is all discoura VOL. VI. NO. 7.
agement. Gracious God, come need, than he, of assistance. I over the mountains of my sins, am more in danger of future and visit me with thy grace, and wrath. My character in the redeem me from sin and death.” sight of God, is much the most
“ Monday, June 7th. How criminal, and I am least conunsatisfying is the world ! and cerned about it. I am guilty yet how eager I am in the pur- of unparalleled stupidity. The suit of its enjoyments ! I am world will command my attenfully sensible of its insufficien- tion, even to the neglect of the cy for happiness, and that there one thing needful.” is another real, unfailing source “ Friday evening, June 18th. of true, solid delight. But still I have this day resisted tempta(strange preposterous creature tion in some little degree ; but, that I am) the former is chosen, alas ! my resolutions against sin and the latter is neglected. My are miserably feeble. The sin principles and practice shume which easily besets me, will fully contradict each other.- have the victory over me. I My head, I believe is much bet-am shamefully pusillanimous in ter than my heart. I have no conflicting with it. God will doubt, that, in general, my faith certainly one day punish me, or is orthodox. Oh, that my life at least, awfully humble me unand conversation harmonizedder a sense of it. If I ever get with it! I want a new heart, into a happier state, I must first and a right frame of spirit. - pass through a fiery trial in reThen should I
go on my way re-pentance. A view of myself, joicing. Then would open to without an interest in Christ, my view a glorious scene indeed. will be a sight awfully painful. Life and immortality with all But to see myself fixed in this its joys would then be mine in state etemally, would be horriprospect. No more fears of fu- ble beyond conception. Oh, ture wrath would torment my what scenes await me ! O my anxious spirit. Then should I God! How am I to be disposed serve my God and Saviour, with of for eternity! A vessel of sweet delight, and be influenced wrath, or a vessel of mercy ? to duty, not by mercenary hopes, How much reason have I to but by pure delight in the per- fear the former ! I can have formance. Blessed is the man no rational hope in any thing but whose case is thus.”
the sovereign, long-abused grace “ Wednesday, June 16th. I of God. Here there is a inay be. hate the character of the hypo-With God, all things are possicrite, and consequently hate my ble. His mercy is boundless.
But God hates it infinite- He has done wonders in every ly more. How vile then must age for undeserving sinners. A I appear in his sight! I have persecuting Saul, a thief on the been conversing with a friend cross, and many of the vilest of this afternoon, under great anxi- men, have been the objects of cty of mind. He came to me his sovereign mercy. Hence the (poor man) for counsel and di- only ground of hope for me. I rection;-supposing I am a Chris. have, this evening, been contian. Alas! I ain but a blind versing with my sister, who proleader of the blind. I have more I fesses a hope that she has shared:
in the special grace of God.- thou not quit thy obstinate hold How ought this to animate me of sin ? Hast thou not become to obtain the crown !”
convinced of the folly and mad“ Saturday evening, July 3d. ness of thy conduct? May not What am I ? Do I know my the time past suffice thee to have own heart ? Do I really see and wrought the will of the flesh ? feel it to be wicked, as I often Wilt thou not henceforth turn confess it to be? Do I see any unto God and live? O vain thing of the great evil, which and fruitless words ? Vain are true Christians are said to see the tears which flow from my in the nature of sin ? Do I see eyes-vain the anguish which any thing of its destructive ten-wreaks my heart ! O the perdency, and great desert of pun- plexity, the anxiety and distress ishment ? Does it give me any of my poor benighted soul ! Oh, trouble, only as exposes me what ignorance, what atheism, to future misery ? Alas! Ideism, and many other frightful find that I can convince myself spectres lurk within my breast? of being altogether mercenary And this, alas ! for ought I in all that I do. My prayers, can tell, is but the beginning of tears, and great thoughtfulness sorrows. But can I support the in religion, will excite in my thought of their being eternal ! heart the idea that God is un-Oh! What shall I do to be der some obligation to have saved ?” mercy on me. But this I find, “ Tuesday evening July 6th. on reflection, 'is far from being One is taken, and another left. the case. I find that I have no How sovereign is God's elecregard for God, in all that I do ; tion ! Nothing the sinner does, and why is he obliged to take any is of the least account with him. kind notice of me? I do what Prayers, tears, and strivings, he has commanded me, not be- bring him under no obligation. cause he has commanded it, but I have been these many years because, by disobeying, I am using these, and yet I obtain not. exposed to punishment ; or by My friend lately began to be obeying, I hope to obtain a re- thoughtful, but the great work in ward. This I plainly see and, him, is, most probably so soon feel is a hard saying for a proud accomplished. A few weeks on heart-hard to be believed, and the boisterous ocean, have landharder still to be thorougbly felt. ed him on the rock of ages, in But my heart can do no better the harbor of peace and safety. than to plead guilty tothe charge. But I am tossed year
year, I cannot find in it any other and alas! must probably sink at than selfish views. This is in- last. My prospects look daily, deed a humbling .confession! more and more like final perdiTo view one's self stripped of all tion. I am led captive by my true virtue, of all real excellence, evil propensities." is dismal, is mortifying beyond “Lord's day, April 10th, expression! and being not only 1791, P. M. The word of God destitute of real good, but full sounds in my ears from week to of evil, is enough to break an week, and from day to day ; but heart of adamant. O my I prove a thorny ground hearer. soul ! wilt thou not relent? wilt | What will becoine of inc in the
end God only knows. I have into the question, how far the reason to fear, that I shall be preservation of that ancient diacast off with the present wicked lect of the Celtic, the language generation. Almost all of my of our forefathers, the primitive standing in life, appear to be inhabitants of this Island, is an travelling to a world of woe. object of just desire. Most go on merrily as if they It is the earnest wish of many had a paradise in prospect ; but wise and good men, that the I find a melancholy journey of whole inhabitants of Great Bri. it; and am, notwithstanding, so tain and Ireland should speak in foolish as obstinately to pursue the same tongue, and be perfectit. I see more of the folly of it ly understood by one another in than others, and am I fear, on their mutual intercourse ;-my that account, more guilty in ad- sentiment on this point differs hering to it. When I compare not from theirs. But surely while my outward behavior with that the Celtic, whether in the Irish, of others, I am apt to look on Welch, or Gaelic dialects, is the myself as less guilty than many. existing language of great bodies But when I look at my heart, of remote and ignorant people, no 'my secret sins, my hypocrisy, wise and good man will refuse to breach of covenant, misimprove- give them the means of instrucment of light, and the influences lion in the only language in which of the Holy Spirit, of privileges, they are capable of receiving it. ordinances, and providences, I And of all the means and modes apprehend myself among the of conveying instruction and imgreatest sinners that ever meet provement, in religion, in morals, the boundless mercy of God and civilization, the Scriptures How necessary is the power of) are, without doubt, the best and God in conversion! How com- most effectual. In the Highlands pletely have I ruined myself! of Scotland it is computed that How dead am I in trespasses 335,000 people speak the Gae-' and sins !-dead to holiness, but lic language, and that of these alive to sin ! A most miserable 300,000 cannot understand a disdeath, and a most miserable life!" course, or a book written in En (To be continued.)
Proceeding upon this idea, From the Religious Monitor. our Society as soon as public
and private benevolence enabled Account of the Society in Scot- them to do so, translated and
land for Propagating Christian published the holy Scriptures in Knowledge.
the Gaelic language. But this (Concluded from p. 240) they could not do at once ; the O one other object, which at work was great and expensive.
present is matter of great They published the Bible at difsolicitude to our Society, I beg ferent periods, and in detached leave for a moment to call the portions : in the year 1767 the attention of this large and most New Testament in Gaelic by ito' respectable company ; and that self; and in various successive is, a proposed new edition of the years, and in separate volumes, Bible in the Gaelic language. the several books of the Old Tes
Gentlemen, I will not enter tament.
In 1796, the first edition of the comprehend a book written, or New Testament being exhaust- a continued discourse spoken in ed, they published another, con- any other. sisting of twenty thousand copies. Gentlemen, I speak not upon And now, some of the first print- mere information : I have traed volumes of the Old Testa-velled in the service of the Sociement are so much reduced in ty through every part of the number, that they will scarcely Highlands and Islands, and have supply the urgent demands of preached to congregations con: the Highlands in general, and sisting of many hundreds, who; of our own schools in particular, from curiosity, flocked together till a new edition can be printed to see and hear a strange minis
The Society have it much at ter; but of whom perhaps not heart to furnish to their country. above a dozen in each, undermen in the Highlands this much stood what he said. desired work : but their own What benevolent heart would funds, as may easily be collected not rejoice to be instrumental in from what I have already said, sending to so numerous a people, are utterly inadequate to the ex- and these our fellow citizens, the pense. The new impression, it Word of God in their native lanis proposed, shall consist of guage, and at such a rate, as the twenty thousand copies : the cal- poorest among them can afford ? culation of the expense of which, Who that is guided by a spark in printing and paper, given in of humanity, would not wish to by the Printer, amounts to convey to successive generations 22841. 168. The Members and of many thousands of children, Officers of the Society have con- this best and most effectual tributed according to their abili. means of instruction and imty, and were their subscriptions provement in every thing valuato be made known, there are few ble and important, whether rewho would not deem them libe- garding man as a member of hu-' ral. Many among the opulent man society, or a being destined and well disposed of their coun- for immortality ? trymen, have joined them in this One circumstance claims pargood work. Near one half of the ticular attention present. sum required, is now subscribed From a variety of combined for, but above eleven hundred causes, unnecessary to be enupounds are still wanting. Yet, merated, a rage for emigration notwithstanding, the Society to America has for some years with that trust in Providence and prevailed through the Highlands in the benevolence of the Public, and Islands. Instead of diminin which they have never been ishing, it continues to increase. deceived, have begun the work. It is computed by those who They feel the importance of has- have best access to information, tening it forward for the accom- that at least twenty thousand modation of no less than three people are engaged to cross the hundred and thirty-five thousand Atlantic during the course of the persons, of whom it is computed present season. Should this disthat three hundred thousand un-position remain, these countries derstand no other language than will, ere many years elapse, be the Gaelic, or at least cannot | deprived of their native inhabi