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care concealed my real feelings. much of the same stamp with Not long after this, I began to myself, as it respected serious lose my serious impressions, and impressions, I told her that I had found that I could go counter to been for a considerable time unthe dictates of conscience with usually hardened ; that I had less pain than formerly. At much reason to fear I had so times however, I was alarmed at slighted the invitations of the my stupidity, and felt the most gospel, and grieved the Spirit of poignant distress upon hearing of God; that I was left to be filled 'some remarkable providence or with my own devices ; that like awakening sermon. The world Ephraim of old, I was joined to never performed agreeably to its idols, and that the Lord had said, promises, and as to a future let her alone. Upon this, she world, the prospect was horri- said she believed she had a book ble and gloomy; a fearful look- which would suit my case, which ing for of judgment and fiery in- was Doddridge's Rise and Prodignation. Still I was in pur- gress of Religion in the Soul. suit of happiness ; and my ar. It was indeed a welcome mesdor did not abate, but took fresh senger. It spake directly to the courage at disappointment. I conscience, and left me wholly resolved upon a more steady and without excuse. The justice useful line of conduct ; and bé- of God appeared in a came very economical of my and unusually striking point of time, improving as much of it in light. I saw a beauty in this reading and writing as possible. divine attribute, that God would That I might lay a better foun-be for ever glorious, and that the dation for improvement, I spent holy inhabitants of heaven might several months at a respectable well shout alleluiah, if I were boarding school in a neighboring sentenced to eternal damnation. parish, where I endeavored to Although I had long found that be fashionably religious, which my sins had made a separating in effect is to possess no reli- wall between God and my own gion at all. After this I was en-soul, and I could neither pray gaged in school-keeping and do nor weep ; yet now I found the mestic duties, not fully persuad-partition broken down, and that ed of the truth of the divine de- I could enter in by the door into claration, that the friendship the sheepfold, saying, whose joy of the world is enmity with is like unto my joy, for it is the God." But hearing of awaken- joy of penitence. Like Mary, I ings in a number of the towns found no luxury like that of adjacent, I became solicitous, washing the feet of Jesus with with regard to myself, while I tears, and wiping them with the found I was trifling upon the hairs of my head. I was un:'brink of eternal ruin. I was ble to stipulate any conditions ; much affected with accounts for I was absolutely insolvent, from abroad, and felt a most and like the prodigal son, could earnest desire that the same spi- only plead to be admitted into rit of enquiry might become the family as an hired servant. prevalent in my native place.- I resolveci by the assisting grace On a certain occasion, while con- of God, let others do what they versing with a woman, who was, would, I would serve the Lord.

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Christ appeared the chief among with him upon religious topics! ten thousands and altogether I went in the fear and strength lovely. The plan of redemption of the Lord, and found the affecappeared glorious indeed,wor- tion and tenderness of the dearthy the triune God. I had new est of friends, who was appaviews with regard to the holy rently desirous of my temporal bible. It came home fraught and eternal happiness. No adwith internal evidence of its di- dition had been made to the vinity and energetic power upon church for a considerable time. the heart. I no longer needed Other good men appeared much the aid of philosophy or the affected with the narrative which powers of eloquence to recom- I gave of my experiences, and mend it ; for I had received “the replied, “ Clarinda, religion is a white star, and in the star a new glorious reality, how much soname written, which no man ever its professors may abuse it. knoweth saving he that receiv- If you are admitted into the eth it.”

church you must expect to com“ I was left to reflect with mune with a set of imperfect shame upon my past conduct, creatures.

We wish you may in treating religion, the one thing excel in the Christian race. You needful, with such neglect. I must expect to be watched, and was much affected with this and it is now of double importance similar texts of scripture how you behave yourself, before “ Whosoever shall be ashamed your former companions. Have of me and of my words, in this you counted the cost of making adulterous and sinful generation, a public profession ?" To which of him also shall the Son of man I replied, I desire to take the be ashamed, when he cometh in profession upon me, and think I the glory of his Father with the am willing to suffer whatever holy angels.” I was convinced may come in consequence. But that I had long loved the praise I have renounced all confidence of men more than the praise of in myself; and unless the Lord God; but now after having rc- l work in me both to will and to peatedly and with the utmost seco, I shall most surely wound riousness and sincerity of my the holy cause. It is by the soul, dedicated myself to God, I grace of God, I am what I am. resolved, through assisting grace I think I know in whom I have and with the consent of the believed, and that he is able to church, to make a public pro- keep that which I have commitfession of religion. I esteemed ted to him against that day. On it not only a duty, but a pleasure being told that I must make one far surpassing any thing I had sacrifice, viz. that of attending ever experienced in the circles balls ; I replied, that I judged of the gay. As conferences were from my present feelings it attended weekly at the meetings would be no sacrifice at all, and house, I went one day with a res- that I had never found it so.” bution to converse with my spir- Soon after this, she united with itual guide before I returned. the church of Christ in BethAud how welcome was an invi- lem ; and er subsequent con. tation from him to any one who versation and daily walk evinced liad an inclination 10 conversa | the sincerity of the profession

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she had made.. The wonders of the beauty and excellence of that
redeeming love, and the glories" charity which seeketh not her
of sovereign grace furnished the own.” The poor, especially
subject of her most delightful those of Christ's flock, can testi-
contemplations, and a subject fy to the Christian liberality
upon which she conversed with with which she was actuated.
warm and rapturous emotions. She was employed in teaching
Whilst she was teaching a school school for several successive
in her native town, the season in seasons, after she professed reli-
which she obtained a hope, she gion, and took unwearied pains
boarded a while in a family where to instil just principles into the
the sweets of religion had never tender minds of her pupils. She
been experienced; where even made it a constant practice for
the form of godliness was dis- several seasons to pray with
carded, and where the head of them daily, and to teach them
the family not only appeared a the importance of remembering
stranger to vital piety, but even their Creator in early life. Deep-
warmly opposed to its essence. ly impressed with a sense of the
But ber conversation and heav- worth of time, she endeavored
enly demeanor soon had a pow-to spend it in such a manner as
erful effect upon him. They to be enabled to give up her fi-
were the means which provi- nal account with joy. She was
dence employed to open his distinguished for the strictest
eyes. He became a subject of economy, and a considerable part
deep conviction, and after long of what she procured by school-
and painful struggling, he was keeping and other means, was
hopefully brought out of dark- cheerfully devoted to charitable
ness into God's marvellous light. uses. The interests of the Re.
He set up family prayer, and deemer's kingdom lay near her
soon after united with the heart. For one in her circum-
church. It is believed that God stances she contributed liberally
used her as an instrument of for the promotion of the gospel.
effecting a lasting change in The readers of this will remem-
several others. She was ex- ber, that in the 12th No. of the
tremely fond of attending reli- 30 Vol. of the Connecticut Evan-
gious meetings. She was rarely gelical Magazine, a letter was
absent from public worship on addressed to the Trustees of the
the Lord's day, or from confer- Missionary Society of Connecti-
ences when it was possible to at-cut, by a Female Friend of Mis-
tend. Much of her time was sions. Mrs. Prentice was the
spent in a careful and prayerful author of that letter.
perusal of the inspired writings, She exhibited the practical
and of the books from which di- power of godliness in an uncom-
vine knowledge was attainable. mon degree for several years.
She often spake of the import- Believing that it was better to go
ance and efficacy of prayer, and to the house of mourning than
it was judged from certain cir- to the house of feasting, she fre-
cumstanses that she was often quented houses of sorrow, ad-
employed in that delightful duty, ministered consolation to the
pouring out her soul to him who sick and dying, and tenderly
seeth in secret. She exhibited sympathized with those who

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Christ appeared the chief among with him upon religious topics ! ten thousands and altogether I went in the fear and strength lovely. The plan of redemption of the Lord, and found the affecappeared glorious indeed,wor- tion and tenderness of the dearthy the triune God. I had new est of friends, who was appaviews with regard to the holy rently desirous of my temporal bible. It came home fraugh and eternal happiness. No adwith internal evidence of its di- dition had been made to the vinity and energetic power upon church for a considerable time, the heart. I no longer needed Other good men appeared much the aid of philosophy or the affected with the narrative which powers of eloquence to recom- I gave of my experiences, and mend it ; for I had received “the replied, “ Clarinda, religion is a white star, and in the star a new glorious reality, how much soname written, which no man ever its professors may abuse it. knoweth saving he that receiv- If you are admitted into the eth it."

church you must expect to com" I was left to reflect with mune with a set of imperfect shame upon my past conduct, creatures.

We wish you may in treating religion, the one thing excel in the Christian race. You needful, with such neglect. I must expect to be watched, and was much affected with this and it is now of double importance similar texts of scripture how you behave yourself, before “ Whosoever shall be ashamed your former companions. Have of me and of my words, in this you counted the cost of making adulterous and sinful generation, a public profession ?" To which of him also shall the Son of man I replied, I desire to take the be ashamed, when he cometh in profession upon me, and think I the glory of his father with the am willing to suffer whatever holy angels.” I was convinced may come in consequence. But that I had long loved the praise I have renounced all confidence of men more than the praise of in myself; and unless the Lord God; but now after having rc-work in me both to will and to peatedly and with the utmost se do, I shall most surely wound riousness and sincerity of my the holy cause. It is by the soul, dedicated myself to God, I grace of God, I am what I am. resolved, through assisting grace I think I know in whom I have and with the consent of the believed, and that he is able to church, to make a public pro- keep that which I have commitfession of religion. I esteemed ted to him against that day. On it not only a duty, but a pleasure being told that I must make one far surpassing any thing I had sacrifice, viz. that of attending ever experienced in the circles balls ; I replied, that I judged of the gay. As conferences were from my present feelings it attended weekly at the meetings would be no sacrifice at all, and house, I went one day with a res- that I had never found it so.” olution to converse with my spir'- Soon after this, she united with itual guide before I returned the church of Christ in BethAnd how welcome was an invi- em ; and her subsequent con: tation from him to any one who versation and daily walk evinced had an inclination to conversal the sincerity of the profession she had made. The wonders of the beauty and excellence of that redeeming love, and the glories“ charity which seeketh not her of sovereign grace furnished the own.” The poor, especially subject of her most delightful those of Christ's flock, can testicontemplations, and a subject fy to the Christian liberality upon which she conversed with with which she was actuates. warm and rapturous emotions. She was employed in teaching Whilst she was teaching a school school for several successive in her native town, the season in seasons, after she professed reliwhich she obtained a hope, she gion, and took unwearied pains boarded a while in a family where to instil just principles into the the sweets of religion had never tender minds of her pupils. She been experienced; where even made it a constant practice for the form of godliness was dis- several seasons to pray with carded, and where the head of them daily, and to teach them the family not only appeared a the importance of remembering stranger to vital piety, but even their Creator in early life. Deepwarmly opposed to its essence. ly impressed with a sense of the But her conversation and heav- worth of time, she endeavored enly demeanor soon had a pow-to spend it in such a manner as erful effect upon him. They to be enabled to give up her fiwere the means which provi- nal account with joy. She was dence employed to open his distinguished for the strictest eyes. He became a subject of economy, and a considerable part deep conviction, and after long of what she procured by schooland painful struggling, he was keeping and other means, was hopefully brought out of dark- cheerfully devoted to charitable ness into God marvellous light. uses. The interests of the ReHe set up family prayer, and deemer's kingdom lay near her

after united with the heart. For one in her circumchurch. It is believed that God stances she contributed liberally used her as an instrument of for the promotion of the gospel. effecting a lasting change in The readers of this will rememseveral others. She was ex- ber, that in the 12th No. of the tremely fond of attending reli- 30 Vol. of the Connecticut Evangious meetings. She was rarely gelical Magazine, a letter was absent from public worship on addressed to the Trustees of the the Lord's day, or from confer- Missionary Society of Connectiences when it was possible to at- cut, by a Female Friend of Mistend. Much of her time was sions. Mrs. Prentice was the spent in a careful and prayerful author of that letter. perusal of the inspired writings, She exhibited the practical and of the books from which di- power of godliness in an uncomvine knowledge was attainable. mon degree for several years. She often spake of the import- Believing that it was better to go ance and efficacy of prayer, and to the house of mourning than it was judged from certain cir- to the house of feasting, she frecumstanses that she was often quented houses of sorrow, ademployed in that delightful duty, ministered consolation to the pouring out her soul to him who sick and dying, and tenderly Seeth in secret. She exhibited sympathized with those who

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