In July, Lady Glenorchy went to Taymouth, where, on every returning year, her presence became more and more desirable, and even necessary, to Lord Breadalbane. Both there and in Edinburgh, she closely attended him, as a daughter dearly beloved, and studied to make his declining days as comfortable as it was in her power to do. This she considered to be her incumbent duty.

By persons intimately acquainted with the spiritual life, the thoughts, and feelings, and reasonings of Lady Glenorchy, will be well understood and easily accounted for, as they are the usual attendants of fighting the good fight of faith. To those who have not advanced so far in Christian experience, the following extract may be both instructive and consolatory, as it shows that the very things which, it may be, perplex and discourage them, have been experienced by some of the most distinguished religious characters which have gone before them.

Sunday, July 25.-After experiencing for some time this morning great deadness and hardness of heart, the Lord at length listened to the voice of my groaning, and gave me unusual liberty of access to his throne, where I poured out my whole heart before him, and devoted myself afresh to him-soul, body, and spirit, to be his for ever more. So be it, Lord!

"Which proposal being considered by the Meeting, and appearing to be greatly for the interest of religion, the Society resolved to give all the countenance that is in their power so such a pious undertaking; and therefore authorized the Preses of the Committee, or any other person they shall name, and the Clerk to the Society, to sign commissions to such missionaries to be appointed by her Ladyship, and approved of by the said committee, in full and ample form, and to affix the Society's seal thereto."

Thursday, August 5.-I heard an excellent sermon this morning from Mr Calder on "Son, give me thy heart;" during which I was attacked by temptation to atheistical thoughts, so much so, that I could not join in the last psalm or prayer from the power of unbelief. When I came home I prayed against them, and they are now gone; yet I still remain in a dead burdened state, perplexed, afraid, and discomposed. Lord, save me from my spiritual foes, for thine own name's sake! Amen!

Sunday, August 8.—I arose early this morning to seek the Lord, and, after some hinderance from a dead heart, I got leave to pour out my soul before him. I felt the workings of sorrow for sin, and hatred thereof, and desired to be wholly conformed to the image of Christ. Upon examination I find I want the following things: A strong faith and clear view of the mystery of redemption by an incarnate God,-the faith which powerfully operates in overcoming the world, and fills the soul with peace, love, and joy in the Holy Ghost. I want the powerful influences of the Holy Spirit to sanctify my nature, consume my dross, to solemnize my mind, illuminate my understanding, and to lead me into all truth. I want to experience the power of Christ in his kingly office, subduing his enemies in my soul, casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God; and that, when wandering thoughts come in like a flood, he would lift up a standard against them, and rule and reign over me now and for evermore. I want power over the fear of man, and the shame I still feel in confessing Christ before men. I want to be delivered from the love of worldly praise and applause and admiration. I want strength to

resist the devil, the world, and the flesh, and wisdom to perceive the snares they lay for my feet. I want a spirit of prayer and supplication, and relish for the word of God, which of late has been a dead letter unto me. In fine, I want the image of Christ stamped on my soul, his will done in me and by me, and the comfort of knowing assuredly that I am now savingly united to him, and that nothing shall ever be able to pluck me out of his hand.

I spread these wants before the Lord this morning, and solemnly gave up myself to him, accepted of Jesus as my only Saviour, and besought the Lord to fulfil my requests in his own time. I found after this much peace in my soul, and was enabled to perceive the work of God there, and to rejoice in his goodness. I went to church in expectation of farther manifestations; but when there I fell into a cold careless frame, and heard little of the sermon; and was unaffected by the amazing scene of love displayed before my eyes in the broken body and shed blood of Jesus. I went to the table in a stupid frame; was confused and distressed with several outward things, that drew off my attention. I did, however, endeavour to receive the elements as pledges of the dying love of Jesus, as the seal of the new and everlasting covenant; and viewed it as the one great sacrifice offered up once for all for the sins of many.

Glory be to God for any thing I have this day seen of his love, or of my own interest in the great salvation purchased with the precious blood of a crucified Saviour! When I look back upon my sins, and inward upon my ungrateful heart, how astonishing is this love that still follows me with mercy, and bears with my repeated backslidings, still saying, as in Jer. iii. 1. "Return again to me, saith the Lord. O who

is a God like unto our God, that pardoneth iniquity, and passeth by the transgressions of his people? yea, he multiplies pardons." O that from this time forward he would take possession of my heart, and manifest his power in me, by subduing my iniquities, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ. Lord, speak the word, and it shall be done. O transform me by the renewing of my mind, and let me henceforth live to thy honour while here, and at length behold thy glory in thy kingdom! Amen and Amen!


A melancholy event occurs in the course of building Lady Glenorchy's Chapel in Edinburgh-Lady Glenorchy much affected thereby—Extract from Diary, and correspondence between Lady Glenorchy and Mr Walker on the subject of the accident-Lady Glenorchy anxious to keep her heart right with God-Extracts from Diary-Difficulty of drawing the line with respect to Christians mingling with the worldTwo mirable letters of Mr Walker's, on conformity to the world.

To this teralludes in her

LADY GLENORCHY was by no means given to superstition; but a very melancholy event took place at this time, which would have made a perplexing as well as distressing impression on any ordinary mind. On Wednesday the 18th of August, by a most unpardonable neglect of the workmen, the scaffolding in her chapel, which was building, gave way, and the architect and his foreman were precipitated from its lofty roof to the floor, and killed on the spot. rible accident her Ladyship indirectly annual recollections on her birth-day. This incident gave occasion to an interesting correspondence between her and Mr Walker, which will be found in the following pages. In the close of which with great address, he intimates his fears that she exceeded in her liberality, and might encroach on her capital; in which, however, he was completely mistaken, as she always took care that her expenses should be below her income.

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