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they are in the true and eternal light which no mere man can see and live. But such men must die and be buried in the grave of sorrow, crucified by the world's sin.

"Yet let this occasion of sorrow be taken away, and why might not a St. Paul be a child again, and chase butterflies, gather flowers, and shout with joy among the heather? It is a great gift to be able to be happy at all, and see, however dimly, into life and death. Those who imitate these holy men only in their sadness and sorrow, practise a vain guise, like a mask, and fancy the signs of grief or grief itself to be a virtue, and not a misfortune, and glorious only as a sign of an inner love the light which casts the shadow. Those who seek happiness for its own sake, and call it innocent, and think it lawful without the eternal good, are vain as larks who would only live for singing, and silly as flowers who see nothing in creation but their own colours, and perceive nothing but their own perfume.

"A mountain once rebuked a rivulet for always foaming and making a noise. The rivulet replied that the ocean often did the same. Yes,' said the mountain, 'but the ocean has its depths and calms but you have neither.'"

Macleod exercised wonderful power over the masses, and won all hearts by his loving sympathy and hearty recognition of their common brotherhood. He gathered into his Barony Church a host of zealous workers, who had caught from him the true spirit of the great Master. Of one of these he speaks as follows: "Tom Baird, the

carter, the beadle of my working-man's church, was as noble a fellow as ever lived-God-fearing, true, unselfish. I shall never forget what he said when I asked him to stand at the door of the working-man's congregation, and when I thought he was unwilling to do so in his working clothes. If,' said I, 'you don't like to do it, Tom; if you are ashamed Ashamed!' he exclaimed, as he turned upon me; 'I'm mair ashamed o' yersel', sir. Div ye think that I believe, as ye ken I do, that Jesus Christ who died for me, was stripped o' his raiment on the cross, and that I-Na, na, I'm prood to stand at the door.' Dear, good fellow! There he stood for seven winters, without a sixpence of pay; all from love, though at my request the working congregation gave him a silver watch. When he was dying from small pox the same unselfish nature appeared. When asked if they should let me know, he replied: 'There's nae man leevin' I like as I do him. I know he would come. But he shouldna' come on account of his wife and bairns, and so ye maunna' tell him!' I never saw him in his illness, never hearing of his danger till it was too late."

He was once on a Highland loch, accompanied by a clerical friend of diminutive size and appearance, who, on a storm coming on which threatened serious consequences, proposed that they should all join in. prayer. "Na, na," said the chief boatman, "let the little ane gang to pray, but first the big ane maun take

an oar."

While holding firmly the great fundamental truths of

our holy religion, Macleod manifested the warmest sympathy to them who differed from him on minor points, and carried this feeling so far as to be sometimes accused of Latitudinarianism, a charge which he indignantly denied. For the "Orthodox Pharisees " who held the truth in all uncharitableness he felt the utmost contempt. In the very last entry he made in his journal, which was written June 3rd, 1872, only a few days before his death, he says: "The last assembly has been the most reactionary I have ever seen; all because Dr. Cairns and other have attacked the church for her Latitudinarianism. The lectures of Stanley have aroused the wrath of the Pharisees, and every trembler wishes to prove that we are not Latitudinarian forsooth? If by this term is meant any want of faith in the Bible, or in the supernatural, or in Christ's person or atonement (though not the church theory), or in the essentials of the faith common to the Church Catholic; then I am no Latitudinarian. But if by this is meant that man's conscience or reason (in Coleridge's sense) is not the ultimate judge of a divine revelation; that I am bound to stick to the letter of the Confession; and to believe for example that all mankind are damned to excruciating torments in soul and body for all eternity,' because of Adam's sin, and the original corruption springing therefrom; and that God has sent a Saviour for a select few only, and that death determines the eternal condition of all men; then, thank God, I am a Latitudinarian, have preached it, confessed it,

can die for it! Nothing amazes or pains me more than the total absence of all pain, all anxiety, all sense of burden or of difficulty among nine-tenths of the clergy I meet, as to questions which keep other men sleepless. Give me only a man who knows, who feels, who takes in, however feebly (like myself), the life and death problems which agitate the best (yes, the best) and most thoughtful of clergy and laity; who thinks and prays about them; who feels the difficulties which exist; who has faith in God that the right will come right, in God's way, if not in his: I am strengthened, comforted, and feel deeply thankful to be taught. But what good can self-satisfied Ultramontanes do for a poor, weak, perplexed soul? Nay, what good can puppies do who may accept congenial conclusions without feeling the difficulties by which they are surrounded? What have I suffered and endured in this my little back study, which I must soon leave! How often from my books have I gazed out of this window before me, and found strength and peace in the little bit of the sky revealed, with its big cumuli clouds, its far-away cirri streaks; and further still, its deep, unfathomable blue-its infinite depths I could not pierce! yet seeing-in the great sunlight, in the glory of cloudland, in the peace of the sky-such a revelation of God as made me say, The Lord reigneth; let the earth rejoice!""

Again he says: "You must take care lest by insisting on the minutiae of doctrine or government you are not raising a barrier to the advance of Christianity.

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Let them call me 'broad.' I desire to be broad as the charity of Almighty God, who maketh His sun to shine on the evil and on the good; who hateth no man, and who loveth the poorest Hindoo more than all their committees or their churches. But while I long for the breadth of charity, I desire the narrow-narrow as God's righteousness, which as a sharp sword, can separate between eternal right and eternal wrong."

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