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prisoner, and blow love upon me, ashamed swalloweth up that pain. It and give a prisoner a taste or is not unkindness that keepeth Christ draught of that sweetness, which is and us so long asunder.
What can glory as it were begun to be a con. I say to Christ's love? I think more firmation, that Christ and I shall than I can say; to consider, that have our fill of other for ever: come when my Lord Jesus may take the air, hither, O love of Christ, that I may if I may so speak, and go abroad, once kiss thee before I die: what yet he will be confined and keep the would I not give to have time, that prison with me; but in all this sweet lyeth betwixt Christ and me, taken communion with him, what am I to out of the way, that we might be thanked for? I ain but a sufferonce meet? I cannot think but ater; whether I will or not, he will the first sight I shall see of that be kind to me, as if he had defied most lovely and fairest face, love my guiltiness to make him unkind; shall come out of his two eyes, and so he beareth his love in on me. fill me with astonishment: I would Here I die with wondering, that but desire to stand at the outer side justice bindreth not love; for there of the gates of the new Jerusalem, are none in hell, nor out of hell, and look through a hole of the door, inore unworthy of Christ's love. and see Christ's face; a borrowed Shame may confound and fear me, vision in this life would be my bor- once to hold up my black mouth, to rowed and begun heaven, while the receive one of Christ's undeserved long, long looked for day dawn. It kisses; if my inner-side were turned is not for nothing that it is said, out, and all men saw my vileness, Col. i. 27. “Christ in you the hope they would say to me, It is a shame of glory." I will be content of no for thee to stand still, while Christ pawn of heaven, but Christ himself, kiss thee and embrace thee; it for Christ, possessed by faith here, would seem to become me rather to is young heaven and glory in the run away from his love, as ashamed bud; if I had that pawn, I would at my own unworthiness; nay, I bide horning and hell both, ere I may think shame to take heaven, gave it again. All we have here, is who have so highly provoked my scarce the picture of glory; should Lord Jesus; but seeing Christ's not we young children, long and look love will shame me, I am content for the expiring of our minority? It to be ashamed. My desire is, that were good to be daily begging pro- my Lord would give me broader pines and love gifts, and the Bride and deeper thoughts, to feed my: groom's favours; and, if we can do self with wondering at his love; I no more, seek crumbs, and hungry would I could weigh it, but I have dinners of Christ's love, to keep the no balance for it. When I have taste of heaven in our mouth, while worn my tongue to the stump, in supper-time. I know it is far after praising of Christ, I have done nonoon, and nigh the marriage-supper thing to him; I must let him alone, of the Lamb; the table is covered for my withered arms will not go already. O Well-beloved, run, run about his high, wide, long and broad fast! O fair day, when wilt thou love. What remaineth then, but dawn! O shadows, flee away! I that my debt to the love of Christ think, hope and love woven through lye unpaid for all eternity? All other make our absence from Christ that are in heaven are black-shamed spiritual torment; it is a pain to with his love as well as I; we must wait on, but hope that maketh not all be dyvours together; and
be with you.
the blessings of that houseful, or the world's glistering lustres, and heavenful of dyvours, shall rest for these broad passments and buskings ever upon
him. O if this land and of religion, that bear bulk in the kirk, nation would come and stand beside is that wherewith most satisfy themhis inconceivable and glorious per- selves: but a watered bed with tears, fections, and look in, and love, and a dry throat with praying, eyes as adore! Would to God I could bring a fountain of tears for the sins of in many lovers' to Christ's house ! the land, is rare to be found among but this nation hath forsaken the us. Oh if we could know the power fountain of living waters. Lord, of godliness! This is one part of my cast not water on Scotland's coal. case; and another is, that I, like a Wo, wo will be to this land, because fool, once summoned Christ for unof the day of the Lord's fierce kindness, and complained of his fickanger, that is so fast coming. Grace leness and inconstancy, because he
would have no more of my service Your affectionate Brother in our Lord nor preaching, and had casten me Jesus,
out of the inheritance of the Lord : Aberdeen,
and now I confess this was but a bought plea, and I was a fool: yet he hath borne with me.
I gave him LETTER XLVI.
a fair advantage against me, but love TO JOHN KENNEDY, Baillie of Ayr. and mercy would not let him take it; Worthy and Dear Brother,
and the truth is, now he hath chid. GRACE, mercy
be to you. ed himself friends with me, and hath I long to see you in this northern taken away the mask, and hath reworld, on paper ; I know it is not for newed his wonted favour in such a getfulness that ye write not. I am manner, that he hath paid me my every way in good case, both in hundred fold in this life, and one to soul and body; all honour and glory the hundred.
This prison is my be to my Lord: I want nothing but banqueting house ; I am handled as a further revelation of the beauty of softly and delicately as a danited the unknown Son of God. Either child; I am nothing behind, I see, I know not what Christianity is, or with Christ; he can in a month make we have stinted a measure of so many up a year's losses : and I write this ounce weights and no more, upon to you that I may intreat, nay, ad. holiness; and there we are at a stay, jure and charge you by the love of drawing our breath all our life : a our Well-beloved, to help me to moderation in God's way, now, is praise. and to tell all your
Chris. much in request. I profess I have tian acquaintance to help me! for I never taken pains to find out him am as deeply drowned in his debt as whom my soul loveth; there is a any dyvour can be: and yet in this way yet of finding out Christ, that I fair sun-blink, I have something to have never lighted upon, O if I keep me from startling, or being excould find it out! Alas how soon are alted above measure; his word is as we pleased with our own shadow in a fire shut up in my bowels, and I am glass ! It were good to be beginning weary with forbearing. The minisin sad earnest to find out God, and ters in this town are saying they shall to seek the right tread of Christ. have my prison changed into less Time, custom, and a good opinion bounds, because they see God with of ourselves, our good meaning, and me; my mother hath born me a our lazy desires, our fair shews, and man of contention, one that striveth
with the whole earth. The late soul and body, in a river and great wrongs and oppressions done to lake of fire and brimstone; then they my brother keep my sails low; yet would wish no more goods, but the I defy crosses to embark me in thousandth part of a cold fountain such a plea against Christ as well to cool their tongue; they was troubled with of late. I hope would then buy death, with endur. to over-hope and over-believe my ing of pain and torment for as many troubles; I have cause now to trust years as God hath created drops of Christ's promise, more than his rain since the creation ; but there is gloom. Remember my hearty af- no market of buying or selling life or fections to your wife. My soul is death there; Oh! alas the greatest grieved for the success of our bre- part of the world run to the place threns' journey to New England; of that torment rejoicing and dancbut God hath somewhat to revealing, eating, drinking, and sleeping. that we see not. Grace be with you. My counsel to you is, that ye start Pray for the prisoner.
in time to be after Christ; for if ye Yours in his only Lord Jesus, go quickly, Christ is not far before Aberdeen, Jan. 1, 1637.
you, ye shall overtake him. O Lord
God, what is so needful as this, Sal. @cececececece*
vation, salvation? Fy upon LETTER XLVII.
demned and foolish world, that would TO MARGARET BALLANTINE. give so little for salvation? Oh, if Mistress,
there were a free market of salvation GRACE, mercy and peace be unto proclaimed, in that day when the you. It is more than time that I trumpet of God shall awake the dead; should have written to you, but it is how many buyers would be then ! yet good time, if I could help your God send me no more happiness but soul to mend your pace, and to go that salvation which the blind world, more swiftly to your heavenly coun- to their eternal wo, letteth slip try; for truly ye have need to make through their fingers; therefore look all haste, because the inch of your if ye can give out your money, (as day that remaineth will quickly slip Isaiah speaketh, chap. lv. 2.) for away; for whether we sleep or wake, bread, and lay Christ and his blood our glass runneth, the tide bideth in wadset for heaven ; it is a dry no man. Beware of a beguile in the and hungry child's part of goods matter of your salvation; wo, wo for that Esaus are hunting for here; I evermore to them that lose that see thousands following the chase, prize; for what is behind, when the and in the pursuit of such things, soul is once lost, but that sinners while in the meantime they lose the warin their bits of clay-houses at a blessing; and when all is done, they fire of their own kindling, for a day have caught nothing to roast for supor two, which doth rather suffocate per but lye down hungry; and bewith its smoke than warm them ; sides, they go to bed, when they die and at length they lye down in sor- without a candle; for God saith to row, and are clothed with everlast- them, . This shall ye have at my ing shame! I would seek no further hand, ye shall lye down in sorrow. measure of faith to begin withal, And truly this is as ill made a bed than to believe really and stedfastly to lye upon as one could wish ; for the doctrine of God's justice, his all he cannot sleep soundly, nor rest devouring wrath and everlasting sweetly, who hath sorrow for his burning, where sinners are burnt, I pillow. Rouze, rouzė up, therefore;
your soul, and ask how Christ and once we could have a fair meeting. your soul met together ; I am sure Thus recommending Christ to you, they never got Christ who were not and you to him for evermore, I rest. once sick at the yolk of the heart for Grace be with
you. him; too, too many whole souls
Yours in his sweet Lord Jesus, think they have met with Christ, who
S. R. had never a wearied night for the want of him ; but alas, what richer are men, that they dreamed the last LETTER XLVIII. night they had inuch gold, and when
TO JANET KENNEDY, they awoke in the morning they Loving and dear Sister, found it was but a dream? What Grace, mercy and peace be to you. are all the sinners in the world, in I received your letter ; I know the that day when heaven and earth shall savour of Christ in you (that the go up in a flame of fire, but a num- virgins love to follow) cannot be ber of beguiled dreamers ? Every blown away with winds, either from one shall say of his hunting and his hell, or the evil smelled air of this conquest, Behold it was a dream ; polluted world : sit far a.back from every man in that day will tell his the walls of this pest-house, even the dream. I beseech you in the Lord pollutions of this defiling world. Jesus, beware, beware of unsound Keep your taste, your love and work, in the matter of your salva-hope in heaven; it is not good your tion ; ye may not, ye cannot, ye dow love and your Lord should be in not want Christ; then after this day two sundry countries. Up, up af. convene all your lovers before your ter your Lover, that ye and he soul, and give them their leave ; and may be together. A King from strike hands with Christ, that there- heaven hath sent for you; by faith after there may be no happiness to he sheweth you the New Jerusalem, you but Christ, no hunting for any and taketh you alongst in the spirit, thing but Christ, no bed at night, through all the ease rooms, and dwel. when death cometh, but Christ; ling. houses in heaven, and saith, All Christ, Christ, who but Christ? I these are thine, this palace is for know this much of Christ, he is not thee and Christ; and if
only had ill to be found, nor lordly of his love; been the chosen of God, Christ wo had been my part of it for ever. would have built that one house for more, if Christ had made a dainty you and himself; now it is for you of himself to me; but God be thank- and many others also: take with you ed, I gave nothing for Christ; and in your journey what ye may carry now, I protest before men and an- with you, your conscience, faith, gels; Christ cannot be sold, Christ hope, patience, meekness, goodness, cannot be weighed; where would brotherly kindness, for such wares angels, or all the world find a bal. as these are of great price in the high ance to weigh bim in? All lovers and new country whither ye go; as blush when ye stand beside Christ ; for other things, that are but the wo upon all love but the love of world's vanity and trash, since they Christ; hunger, hunger for ever-are but the house-sweepings, ye shall more, be upon all heaven but Christ; do best not to carry them with
you: shame, shame for evermore, be upon ye found them here, leave them here, all glory. I cry
upon all lives and let them keep the house. Your but the life of Christ. O what is it sun is well turned and low; be nigh that holdeth us asunder! O that your lodging against night. We go
one and one out of this great mar. that there is a heaven, as they deny ket, till the town be empty, and the there is a way to it but of men's mak. two lodgings, heaven and hell, being. You have learned of Christ filled: at length there will be no- that there is a heaven; contend for thing in the earth but toom walls it, and contend for Christ; bear well and burnt ashes, and therefore it is and submissively the hard best to make away. Antichrist and this step-mother world, that God his master are busy to plenish hell, will not have to be yours. I consess and to seduce many and stars, great it is hard, and I would I were able church lights, are falling from heas to ease you of your burden; but beven, and many are misled and se- lieve me, this world (which the Lord duced, and make up with their will not have to be yours) is but the faith, and sell their birth-rights, by dross, the refuse and scorn of God's their hungry hunting for I know creation, the portion of the Lord's not what. Fasten your grips fast poor hired servants; the moveables, upon Christ. I verily esteem him not the heritage; a hard bone casten the best aught that I have; he is to the dogs, holden out of the New my second in prison ; having him, Jerusalem, whereupon they rather though my cross were as heavy as break their teeth than satisfy their ten mountains of iron, when he put- appetite: it is your Father's blessing, teth his sweet shoulder under me and Christ's birth-right, that our and it, my cross is but a feather. I Lord is keeping for you; and I perplease myself in the choice of Christ; suade you, your seed also shall inhe is my wail in heaven and earth: herit the earth, (if that be good for I rejoice that he is in heaven before them) for that is promised to them ;. me; God send a joyful meeting : and God's bond is as good, and bet. and in the meantime, the traveller's ter, than if men would give every charges for the way, I mean a bur- one of them a bond for a thousand den of Christ's love to sweeten the thousands. Ere you was born, crosjourney, and to encourage a breath-ses in number, measure and weight less runner; for when I lose breath, were written for you, and your Lord climbing up the mountain, he mak- will lead you through them: make eth new breath. Now the very God Christ sure, and the blessings of the of peace establish
you to the day of earth shall be at Christ's back. I his appearance.
see many professors for the fashion Yours in his only Lord Jesus, followeth on; but they are proAberdeen, Sept. 9, 1637.
S. R. fessors of glass: I would cause
a little knock of persecution ding so
them in twenty pieces, and so the LETTER XLIX.
world should laugh at the shivers.
Therefore make fast work, see that My very dear and worthy Sister, Christ lay the ground stone of GRACE, mercy and peace be to you. your profession; for wind and rain, Ye are truly blessed of the Lord, and speats will not wash away his however a sour world gloom upon building ; his works have no shorter you,
if ye continue in the faith date ihan to stand for evermore. I grounded and settled, and be not should twenty times have perished moved away from the hope of the in my affliction, if I had not leaned gospel. It is good there is a heaven, my weak back, and laid my pressing and it is not a night dream or a fan- burden both upon the stone, the cy: it is a wonder that men deny not foundation stone, the corner stone
TO MARGARET REID,