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to lift him upon his throne, to carry a weak man. Nay, verily I was a his train, and bear up the hem of child before ; all by.gones are but his robe royal; he hath an hiding children's play: I would I could begin place for Mr. A.C. against the storm; to be a Christian in sad earnest. I go on, and fear not what man can need not blame Christ if I be not do. The saints seem to have the one; for he hath shewed me heaven worst of it; for apprehensions can and hell in Aberdeen; but the truth make a lie of Christ and his love, is, for all my sorrow, Christ is noth. but it is not so; providence is not ing in my debt, for comforts have rolled upon unequal and crooked refreshed my soul; I have heard wheels; all things work together for and seen him in his sweetness, so, the good of those who love God, and as I am almost saying, it is not be are called according to his purpose.
that I was wont to meet with ; he Ere it be long, we shall see the white laugheth more cheerfully, his kisses side of God's providence. My bro- are more sweet and soul-refreshing, ther's case hath moved me not a lit. than the kisses of the Christ I saw tle; he wrote to me your care and before, were, though he be the kindness. Sir, the prisoner's bless- same; or rather, the King hath ings and prayers, I trust, shall not led me up to a measure of joy and go by you. He that is able to keep communion with my Bridegroom, you, and to present you before the that I never attained to before; so presence of his face with joy, es that I often think, I will neither tablish your heart in the love of borrow nor lend with this world; Christ.
I will not strike sail to crosses, Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus,
nor flatter them to be quit of them, as I have one.
Come all crosses, Aberdeen, Feb. 19, 1637.
welcome, welcome! so I may get
heart full of my Lord Jesus. I
have been so near him, as I have LETTER XCVI.
said, I take instruments, this is the TO EARLSTOUN, Younger. Lord; leave a token behind thee, Honoured & dear Brother,
that I may never forget this. Now, GRACE, mercy
peace be to you. what can Christ do more to dawt I received your letter, which refresh- one of his poor prisoners; Therefore, ed my soul. I thank God, the court Sir, I charge you in the name of is closed, I think shame of my part my Lord Jesus, praise with me, and of it; I pass now from my unjust shew unto others what he bath done summons of unkiodness, libelled unto my soul. This is the fruit of against Christ my Lord; he is not my sufferings, that I desire Christ's such a Lord and master as I took name may be spread abroad in this him to be; verily he is God, and I kingdom, in my behalf. I hope in am dust and ashes ; I took Christ's God not to slander him again; yet glooms to be as good as Scripture in this, I get not my feasts without speaking wrath; but I have seen the some mixture of gall; neither am I other side of Christ, and the white free of old jealousies; for he hath reside of his cross now. I behoved moved my lovers and friends far to come to Aberdeen, to learn a from me; he hath made my congrenew mystery in Christ, that his gation desolate, and taken away my promise is better to be believed than crown; and my dumb sabbaths are his looks, and that the devil can like a stone tyed to a bird's foot, cause Christ's glooms speak a lie to that wanteth wings, they seem to
hinder me to flee, were it not that I dead to my lusts and to this world; dare not say one word, but, Well when the day of visitation cometh, done, Lord Jesus.
We can in our and your old idols come weeping prosperity sport ourselves, and be about you, ye will have much adó too bold with Christ; yea, be that not to break your heart; it is best insolent, as to chid with him; but to give up in time with them, so as under the water we dare not speak. ye could at a call quit your part of I wonder now of my sometimes this world for a drink of water, or a boldness, to chide and quarrel Christ, thing of nothing. Verily I have to nickname providence, when it seen the best of this world, a mothstroaked me against the hair; but eaten thread-bare coat; I purpose now swimming in the waters, I think to lay it aside, being holey and old. my will is fallen to the ground of O for my house above, not made the water ; I have lost it. I think with hands! Pray for Christ's prisonI would fain let Christ alone, and er, and write to me. Remember my give him leave to do with me what love to your mother; desire her from he pleaseth, if he would smile upon me, to make ready for removing : me. Verily, we know not what an the Lord's tide will not bide her ; evil it is to spill and indulge our. and to seek an heavenly mind, that selves, and to make an idol of our her heart may be often there. will; I was once, I would not eat, Grace be with you. except I had wailed meat ; now I
Your's and Christ's prisoner, dare not complain of the crumbs
Aberdeen, Feb. 20, 1637.
S. R. and parings under his table: I was once that I would make the house ado, if I saw not the world carved, and set in order to my liking; now
LETTER XCVII. I am silent, when I see God hath set
To ROBERT GLENDINING, servants on horseback, and is fatten
My dear Friend, ing and feeding the children of perdition. I pray God, I never find GRACE, mercy
peace my will again; Oh if Christ would I thank you most kindly for your subject my will to his, and trample care of me, and your love and reit under his feet, and liberate me spective kindness to my brother in from that lawless lord! Now, Sir, his distress. I pray the Lord ye may in your youth gather fast; your sun find mercy in the day of Christ; and will mount to the meridian quickly, I intreat you, Sir, to consider the and thereafter decline ; be greedy times ye live in, and that your soul of grace: study above any thing, is more worth to you than the whole my dear brother, to mortify your world, which, in the day of the blow. lusts. O but pride of youth, vanity, ing of the last trumpet, shall lye in lust, idolizing of the world, and white ashes, as an old castle burnt charming pleasures, take long time to nothing; and remember that judgto root them out! As far as ye are ment and eternity is before you. My advanced in the way to heaven, as dear and worthy friend, let me innear as ye are to Christ, as much treat you in Christ's name, and by progress as ye have made in the the salvation of your soul, and by way of mortification, ye will find your compearance before the dreadthat ye are far behind, and have ful and sin-revenging Judge of the most of your work before you. 1 world, make your accounts ready, never took it to be so hard, to be read them ere ye come to the water.
be to you.
be to you,
side ; for
your afternoon will wear that we now. naturally love, shall be short, and your sun fall low and go less than nothing in that day. Dear down: and ye know, that this long brother, fulfil my joy, and betake time
your Lord hath waited on you. you to Christ without further delay, O how comfortable a thing it shall ye will be fain at length to seek him,
when time shall be no or do infinitely worse. Rememher more, and your soul shall depart out my love to your wife. Grace be of the house of clay, to vast and with you. endless eternity, to have your soul
Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, dressed up, and prepared for your
S. R. Bridegroom! No loss is comparable Aberdeen, March 13, 1637. to the loss of the soul; there is no
@ceas hope of regaining that loss. O how joyful would my soul be, to hear
LETTER XCVIII. that ye would start to the gate, and To WILLIAM GLEN DINING. contend for the crown, and leave all
Well-beloved and dear brother, vanities, and make Christ your gar: Grace, mercy and peace be to you. land! Let your soul put away your I thank you most kindly for your old lovers, and let Christ have
your whole love; I have some experience
care and love to me, and in particuto write of this to you. My witness lar to my brother, in his distress in is in heaven, I would not exchange Edinburgh: go on through your wa. my chains and bonds for Christ, and ters without wearying; your guide my sighs, for ten world's glory. I knoweth the way, follow him, and judge this clay idol, that Adam's cast your cares and tentations upon sons are rouping and selling their him; and let not worms, the sons of souls for, not worth a drink of cold men, affright you; they shall die, water. O if your soul were in my
and the moth shall eat them; keep soul's stead, how sick would ye be your garland; there is no less at the of love for that fairest one, that fair- stake, in this game betwixt est among the sons of men! May
the world, than our conscience and flowers and morning-vapour, and salvation; we have need to take summer-mist posteth not so fast a.
heed to the game, and not to yield way, as these worm-eaten pleasures
Let them take other
to them. that we follow: we build castles in things from us ; but here, in matters the air, and night-dreams are our draw with kings, and set ourselves
of conscience, we must hold and daily idols that we dote on. Salva. vation, salvation is our only necessary of the earth. O the sweet commun
in terms of opposition with the shields thing. Sir, call home your thoughts ion for evermore, that hath been to this work, to enquire for your Well-beloved: this earth is the
between Christ and his prisoner!
por: tion of bastards ; seek the son's in. He wearieth not to be kind; he is heritance, and let Christ's truth be the fairest sight I see in Aberdeen,
I pawn my
or any part that ever my feet were on it, that this is the honour of in. Remember my hearty kindness Christ's kingdom I now suffer for, to your wife; I desire her to believe, and this world, hope, shall not and lay her cares on God, and make come between me and my garland,
fast work of salvation. Grace be and that this is the way to life. When with you. ye and I shall lye like lumps of pale
Your's in his only Lord Jesus, clay upon the ground, our pleasures Aberdeen, March, 19, 1637. S. R.
dear to you.
To JEAN BROWN
LETTER XCIX. hope ye are near your lodging. O
but I would think myself blessed, for
my part, to win the house before Well Beloved and Dear Sister,
the shower come on! for God hath GRACE, mercy, and peace be to you
be to you a quiver full of arrows to shoot at, I received your letter, which I es- and shower down upon Scotland. teem an evidence of your Christian Ye have the prayers of a prisoner of affection to me, and of your love to Christ. I desire Patrick to give my honourable Lord and Master. Christ his young love, even the My desire is, that your communion flower of it, and to put it by all with Christ may grow, and that your others; it were good to start soon reckonings may be put by hand with to the way; he should thereby have your Lord ere ye come to the water- a great advantage in the evil day. side. O who knoweth how sweet Grace be with you. Christ's kisses are! who hath been
Your's in his only Lord Jesus, more kindly embraced and kissed
Aberdeen, March 7, 1637.
S. R. than I his banished prisoner? If the comparison could stand, I would not exchange Christ with heaven itself: he hath left a dart and arrow
LETTER C. of love in my soul, and it paineth me
To Mr. JOHN FERGUSHILL. till he come and taketh it out. I find Reverend and Well-beloved in the Lord, pain of these wounds, because 1 I was refreshed with your letter: I would have possession. I know am sorry for that lingering and long. now, this worm-eaten apple, the some visitation that is upon your plaistered, rotten world, that the wife ; but I know ye take it as the silly children of this world are beat-mark of a lawfully begotten child, ing and buffeting, and pulling others' and not of a bastard, to be under ears for, is a portion for bastards your Father's rod. Till ye be in good enough; and that is all they heaven it will be but foul weather, have to look for." I offend not, that one shower up and another down. my adversaries stay at home at their The lintle stone and pillars of the own fire-side, with more yearly rent New-Jerusalem suffer more knocks than I; should I be angry that the of God's hammer and tool, than the good-man of this house of the world common side-wall stones: and if casteth a dog a bone to hurt his twenty crosses be written for you teeth ? He hath taught me to be in Göd's book, they will come to content with a borrowed fire-side, nineteen, and then at last to one, and an uncouth bed; and I think I and after that to nothing ; but your have lost nothing, the income is so headshall lye betwixt Christ's breasts great. O what telling is in Christ ! for evern:ore, and his own soft hand o how weighty is my fair garland, shall dry your face, and wipe away my crown, my fair supping-hall in your tears. As for public sufferings glory, where I shall be above the for his truth, your Naster also will blows and buffetings of prelates ! see to these ; let us put him in his Let this be your desire, and let your own office, to comfort and deliver. thoughts dwell much upon that The gloom of Christ's cross is worse blessedness that abideth you in the than itself. I cannot keep up
what other world. The fair side of the he hath done to my soul. My dear world will be turned to you quickly, brother, will l not get help of you when ye shall see the crown. I to praise, and to lift Christ up on
To his Rev. and dear Brother Mr. ROBERT
be to you.
high? He hath pained me with his it shall once pass through God's sieve. love, and hath left a love-arrow in Praise, praise, and pray for me; for my heart, that hath made a wound, I cannot forget you: I know you and swelled me up with desires, so will be friendly to my afflicted brothat I am to be pitied for want of ther, who is now embarked in the real possession. Love would have same cause with me ; let him have the
company of the party loved : your counsel and comforts. Reand my greatest pain is the want of member my love in Christ to your him, not of his joys and comforts, wife; her health is coming, and her but of a near union and communion. salvation sleepeth not. Ye have the This is his truth, I am fully persuad- prayers and blessing of a prisoner in ed, I now suffer for: for Christ hath Christ ; sow fast, deal bread plentitaken upon him to be witness to it, fully; the pantry-door will be locked by his sweet comforts to my soul; on the children, in appearance, ere and shall I think him a false witness, long. Grace, grace be with you. or that he would subscribe blank
Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus,
S. R. paper? I thank his high and dread. Aberdeen, March 7, 1637. ful name for what he hath given ; I hope to keep his seal and his pawn till he come and loose it himself. I
LETTER CI. defy hell to put me off it, but he is Christ, and he hath met with his prisoner, and I took instruments in My very Reverend and dear Brother, his own hand, that it was he, and Grace, mercy, and
peace none other for him. When the I long to see you on paper. devil fenceth a bastard-court in my not but write you, that this which I Lord's ground, and giveth me forged now suffer for is Christ's truth; besummons, it will be my shame to cause he hath been pleased to seal misbelieve, after such a fair broad my sufferings with joy unspeakable seal; and yet Satan and my appre- and glorious ; I know he will not put hension sometimes make a lie of his seal upon blank paper ; Christ Christ, as if he hated me; but I dare hath not dumb seals, neither will believe no evil of Christ: if he would he be witness to a lie. I beseech cool my love.fever for himself with you, my dear brother, help me to real presence and possession I would praise, and to lift Christ up on his be rich; but I dare not be mislearn- throne, above the shields of the ed, and seek more in that kind, how- earth. I am astonished and con. beit it be no shame to beg at Christ's founded at the greatness of his kind. door. I pity my adversaries; 1 ness to such a sinner.
I know, grudge not that my Lord keepeth Christ and I shall never be even, I them at their own fire-side, and hath shall die in his debt; he hath left an given me a borrowed bed and a bor. arrow in my heart that paineth me rowed fire-side: let the good-man of for want of real possession; and hell the house cast the dog a bone! why cannot quench this coal of God's should I offend! I rejoice that the kindling. I wish no man slander broken bark shall come to land, and Christ or bis cross for my cause ; that Christ will, on the shore, wel. I have much cause to speak much come the sea-sick passenger. We good of him; he hath brought me have need of a great stock against to a nick and degree of communion this day of trial that is coming ; nei. with himself that I knew not before. ther chaff nor corn in Scotland, but The din and gloom of our Lord's