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who, pointing several times with his left tained by the storm while visiting a patient hand to his heart, said at last, “ The count in a neighboring village. He drove off with has expressed what I wished to say, but it the rest, having scarcely had time to say is better for him to have said it, and he has good-evening to the Count Clodwig and done it much better than I could. Carry Bella. out your purpose, comrade.”
Bella drew a long breath when the rePranken now came up, and said, in a very ception was all over. There was much affable tone, that it was he who had advised conversation in the different carriages, but and recommended Eric. Lina had opened in one there was weeping, for Lina rea window, and called out in a clear voice, ceived a sharp scolding for her behavior, “ The storm is over."
in acting as if she were nothing but a stuA fresh, fragrant air streaming into the pid, simple country girl. Instead of being saloon gave relief to their constraint, and sprightly and making the most of herselt, every one breathed freely again. A gentle she behaved as if she had come, only an rain still pattered down, but the nightingales hour before, from keeping geese. Lina were again singing in the woods. They had for a long time been accustomed now urged the forester's wife to sing. She to these violent reproofs, but she seemed todeclined, but could not withstand the re- day to take them more feelingly to heart. quest of Bella, who very seldom played, She had been so happy, that now the sethat she would sing to her accompaniment. vere lecture came doubly hard. She si
The forester's wife sang some songs with lently wept. so fresh and youthful a voice, so clear and The justice, who was no justice of the simple, that the hearts of all the hearers peace in his own family, took no part in were touched. Lina also was urged to sing. this feminine outbreak. Not until he was She insisted that she could not to-day, but, ready to take a fresh cigar did he say, on receiving a reproving glance from herThis loquacious Dournay seems to me a mother, she seated herself at the piano, dangerous man.” sang some notes, and then gave up. With- “I think him very agreeable." out embarrassment, as if nothing had hap- “Woman's logic! as if the amiability, pened, she said, “I have now proved to instead of excluding, did not rather include you that I can't sing to-day.”
the dangerous element. Don't you see The wife of the justice bit her lips, and through this very transparent intrigue ?" breathed hard with quivering nostrils, at
"No." the foolish girl acting as if nothing was the Then put together these facts: we matter. The forester's wife sang another come across him at the convent, where the song; and now Lina, placing herself at her daughter of this exceedingly wealthy llerr side, said that she would sing a duet, but Sonnencamp is living, and he acts as if he she could not sing alone. And she did sing, knew no one, and had no special end in in a fresh soprano voice, somewhat timidly, view. Now he wants to be the tutor of but with clear and pure tone.
young Sonnencamp. IIa! what a tlash!” With unconscious simplicity, as if he A bright flash of lightning illumined not were an old acquaintance, she now asked only the landscape, but the relation in Eric to sing. The whole company united which several people stood to each other. in the request, but Erie positively declined, Especially the Eden villa was as clearly and looked up surprised when Pranken defined in every part as if it were only a joined in with the remark, “ The captain is few paces off. right in not exhibiting at once all his va- Just see," continued the justice, “ how ried talents.” It was said in the gentlest this great pile of buildings and the park are tone, but the sarcastic point was unmistak- lighted up, and no one knows what is brew able.
ing up here. Amazing world! Baron Prank“I thank you for standing by me like a en introduces this Dournay to his sister, good comrade," said Eric, looking round. in-law and his father-in-law as a friend, and
The sky was clear, only it still lightened yet these two men are sworn enemies." over the Taurus mountains. The com- The wife of the justice was vexed with pany took their leave, with many thanks her husband. Ile was
so animated, and for the delightful day they had spent, and made such keen observations alone with the charming evening. Even the perpetu- her and at home, while in society he had ally silent Mrs. Lay-figure ” now spoke, bardly a word to say, and let others bear appearing in her fashionable new hood, away all the honors. which she had put on very becomingly. "Who is the father-in-law you speak Just as they were departing, the physician of?" she asked, for the sake of saving made his appearance. He had been de- something.
CONFESSION OF TWO KINDS.
Why, Herr Sonnencamp, of course; displeasing at court. This last reason, he at least, he is to be. That inexhaustible thought, would carry all before it. Pranwealth of his is guano for the Baron Prank- ken had worked himself into the belief that en; he needs it, and why should he trouble to have a secure position in the court-circle himself about where it comes from?" was the highest that Herr Sonnencamp
Lina threw her veil over her face, and could aim at. shut her eyes. The justice now explained Bella rejected this plan; she took pleasthe special reasons why neither he nor his ure in inciting her brother to gain the vicwife should become mixed up in these af- tory over such an opponent; that would infairs.
spire him with fresh animation. Moreover, “ This captain doctor is a dangerous that it might be well to offset the Lady man, dangerous in many respects. This Perini, wbose ecclesiastical tendencies no was his last remark, and they were silent one had thoroughly fathomed, by a man nntil they reached home.
who was a representative of the world, and under obligations of gratitude to them. And further it was not to be doubted that a perpetual, secret war would exist between
Donna Perini and this over-confident DourOtto von PRANKEN walked with his sis- nay, so that whatever might happen, they ter Bella up and down the garden. Otto in- would have the regulation and disposal of formed her that he had recommended Eric matters in their own hands. to Herr Sonnencamp, but that he was al- Bella forgot all her vexation, for a wbole ready very sorry for it.
web of intrigue unfolded itself clearly to her Bella, who was always out of humor sight, agreeable in the prosecution, and after she had made herself a victim to the tending to one result. She was the conficollation, turned now her ill humor against dante of Fraulein Perini, but she herself her brother, who had introduced to her as did not wholly trust her, and Otto must rea fitting guest one who was, or wished to be, main intimate with Eric; and in this
way, a menial, and above all, a menial of that they would hold the Sonnencamp family in Herr Sonnencamp. With mischievous sat- their hands, for Eric would undoubtedly'acisfaction she added thereto, that Otto must quire great influence. take delight in boldly leaping over difficul- Otto strenuously resisted the carrying out ties, since he had recommended into the of the part assigned to him, but he was not family such an attractive person as this let off. A cat sitting quiet and breathless doctor — she made use of that title as be- before a mouse-hole will not be enticed ing inferior to that of captain. The natural away, for she knows that the mouse will consequence would be that the daughter of come out; it is nibbling already; and then the house would fall in love with her broth- there is a successful spring. Bella had er's tutor.
one means of inducing her brother to do as “ This Herr Dournay,” she ended by she wished; she need only repeat to him saying, “is a very attractive person, not how irresistible he was, and how necessamerely because he is extraordinarily hand- ry it was for him to gain that self-confidence
but yet more because he possesses a which had hitherto stood him in such good romantic open-heartedness and honesty. part. Otto was not fully convinced, but he Whether it is genuine or assumed, at any was persuaded that he soon would be. rate, it tells, and particularly with a girl of And, moreover, this Dournay was a poor seventeen just out of a convent.”
man whom one must help; he had taken toOtto answered good naturedly, that he day the sudden revelation of his position had given his sister credit for a less common- in life with a good grace, and behaved very place imagination ; moreover that Eric was well. an acknowledged woman-hater, who would Whilst brother and sister promenaded in never love a real woman of flesh and blood. the garden, Eric sat in the study of Count Yet Pranken declared his intention of call- Clodwig, that was lighted by a braneling ing the next morning at the villa, and tell- lamp. They sat opposite, in arm-chairs, at ing Herr Sonnencamp in confidence how the long writing-table. “I regret,” Clodvery reluctant he was to give the recommen- wig began, " that the physician came so dation; that he should beseech him to dis- late; he has a rough rind, but a sound heart. miss the applicant politely, for he might with I think that you and he will be good propriety and justice say that Eric would friends." inoculate the boy with radical ideas; yes, Eric said nothing, and Clodwig continthat it might further be said to Herr Son- ued: “I cannot understand why my brothnencamp, that to receive Eric would be ler-in-law, in his peculiar manner, informed
the company so suddenly of your intention. Now it is a common topic of conversation, and your excellent project loses its first naïve charm.”
“I AM twenty-eight years old, and when Eric replied with great decision, that we I review my life, it seems to me so far to must allow the deed resolved upon in med- have been only a search. One occupation itation to come into the cold sharp air of leaves so many faculties dormant, and yet the critical understanding.
the torture of making a choice must come Clodwig again gazed at him fixedly, ap- to an end; and in every calling of life the parently surprised that this man should be entire manhood may be maintained and so well armed at all points; and placing called forth into action. his small hand upon a portfolio before him “I am the child of a perfectly happy as if he were writing down something new, marriage, and you know what that means. he resumed :
I shared, from my third year, the education “I have, to-day, been confirmed anew in of the Prince Leonhard.' There was a peran old opinion. People generally regard petual opposition between us, the reason of private employment as a degradation, re- which I did not discover until later, when gardless of the consideration that the im- an open breach occurred. I then saw for portant thing is in what spirit one serves, the first time, that a sort of dissimulation, and not whom he serves. I serve,' is the which does not agree with good comrademotto of my maternal ancestors."
ship, had made me outwardly deferential, The old man paused, and Eric did not and inwardly uneasy and irritated. Perknow whether he was going on, or waited haps nothing is more opposed to the very for a reply; but Clodwig continued: “ It nature of a child than a perpetual deference is regarded as highly honorable when a and compliant acquiescence. general officer or state official undertakes “I entered the military school, where I the education of a prince; but is it any the received marked respect, because I had less honorable to engage in the work of ed- been the comrade of the prince. My father ucating thirty peasant lads, or to devote was there my special instructor, and there one's self as you do, to the bringing up of I lived two years with your brother-in-law. this wealthy youth? And now I have one I was not distinguished as a scholar. request to make of you."
“One of the happiest days of my life *My only desire is to grant it."
was the one on which I wore my epaulets Will you tell me as exactly as possible for the first time; and though the day ou how you have so— I mean, how you have which I laid aside my uniform was not less become what you are?”
happy, I am not yet free from inconsistency. * Most willingly; and I will deserve the I cannot to this day see a battery of artilhonor of being allowed to speak so unre- lery pass by without feeling my lieart beat servedly, by not being too modest. I will quicker. speak to you as to myself."
“ I travel backwards and forwards, and I Clodwig rang a bell that stood upon the pray you to excuse disconnected narration. table, and a servant entered. “. Robert, I have, to-day, been through such a various what room is assigned to the doctor?” experience; but I will now endeavor to tell “ The brown one directly over the count's my story more directly and concisely. chamber." “Let the captain have the bal- Soon after I became lieutenant, my pacony chamber.”
“ If the vount will par-rents removed to the university city; I was don me, the luggage of Leonhard, Prince now left alone. I was for a whole year of Saxony, is still in that room." * No contented with myself and happy, like matter; and, one thing more, I desire not everyone around me. I can remember to be interrupted until I ring."
now the very hour of a beautiful autumn The servant departed, and Clodwig set- afternoon, - I still see the tree, and hear tled himself in the arm-chair, drawing a the magpie in its branches, — when I sudplush sofa-blanket over his knees; then he denly reined in my horse, and something said, “ If I shut my eyes, do not think that within me asked, "What art thou doing in I am asleep."
the world ? training thyself and thy recruits In the manner with which Clodwig now to kill thy fellow-men in the most scientitie bade Eric speak out frankly, there was a manner?'i trustful kindness, very far removed from all Allow me to ask one question," Clodpatronizing, condescension; it expressed, wig mildly interrupted. “Did the military rather, an intimate sympathy and a most school never seem to you a school of men, hearty confidence. Eric began.
and part of your profession?"
Eric was confused, and replied in the beaming glance. After a short pause, negative; then collecting his thoughts, he Clodwig nodded to Eric, then folded his resumed: "I sought to drive away oppres- arms again on his breast, laid his head back, sive thoughts, but they would not leave nodded again, and closed his eyes. Eric me. I had fallen out with myself and my continued : occupation. I cannot tell you how useless “When I first went through the streets to myself and to the world I seemed to be, in a civilian's dress, I felt as if I were walk
– all was empty, bare, desolate. There ing naked before the eyes of men, as one were days when I was ashamed of my dress, sometimes seems to be in troubled dreams. that I, a sound, strong man, should be loaf- In such a helpless, forlorn state of feeling, ing about so well dressed, my horse perhaps one grows superstitious, and is easily govconsuining the oats of some poor man.” erned by the merest accidents. The first
“. That is morbid,” Clodwig struck in person who met me, and stared at me, as if with vebemence.
doubting who I was, was my former captain, “ I see it is now; but then it was differ- who had left the service, and was superinent in the first stress of feeling. The Cri- tendent of a House of Correction for men. mean war broke out, and I asked for a fur- He had seen the notice of my discharge, lough, in order to become acquainted with and remembering some of my former atactual war. My commander, Prince Leon- tempts in that direction, asked whether I hard, at the rifle-practice, casually asked meant to devote myself entirely to poetry. me which army I meant to join; and before I answered in the negative, and he told me I could reply, he added, in a caustic tone, that he was looking for an assistant. My . Would you prefer to enlist with the light decision was soon made; I would conseFrench or the heavy Englishman ?'. My crate myself to the care and elevation of tongue was tied, and I perceived clearly my fallen fellow-men., After entering on my own want of a clear understanding of my new occupation I wrote to my parents. my position. How mere a cipher was I, My father replied to me, that he appreciatstanding there without any knowledge of ed my efforts, but foresaw with certainty myself or the world! My outer relations that my natural love of beauty would make shared in the total ruin of my inner being a life among criminals unbearable to me; Must I relate to you all these petty annoy- he was right. I tried with all my might to ances? I deserved to have them, for there keep in subjection a longing for the higher was in me nothing but contradiction, and luxuries of life, but in vain. I was without my whole life was one single great lie. A that peculiar natural vein, or perhaps had uniforin had been given me; I was not my- not reached that elevated standpoint which self, and I was a poor soldier, for I aban- enables one to look upon and to treat all doned myself to the study of philosophy, the aspects of life as so many natural pheand wished to solve the riddle of life. I nomena. In my captain's uniform I received am of a peculiarly companionable, sympa- more respect from the prisoners than in my thetic nature, and yet the continued life citizen's dress. This experience was a sort among my fellow-soldiers had become an of nightmare to me. Life among the conimpossibility:
victs, who were either hardened brutes or " I bore it two years, then asked for my cunning hypocrites, became a hell to me, discharge; which I received, with the rank and this hell had one peculiar torment. I of Captain, out of respect to my parents, I fell into a mood of morbid self-criticsm, bethink. I was free, at last, and yet, as I cause I could not forget the world, but was said before, it saddened me to break away constantly trying to guess the thoughts of from my life.
others. I tormented myself by imagining “I was free! It was strange to look out what men said of my course.
İn their eyes into the world and say, World, what do you I seemed to myself now an idealistic vagawant of me? What must I do for you? bond, if you will allow the expression. This Here are a thousand employments; which I was not, and would not be, and above all, shall I take? I was ready for anything. I was determined that my enemies and deI had a fine voice, and many people thought riders should not have the triumph of seethat I might become a professional singer, ing me the wreck of a fickle and purposeand I received overtures to that effect. less existence. But my own inclination led in a very differ- “Ah, I vexed myself unnecessarily; for ent direction. An earnest longing pos- who has time or inclination to look for a sessed me to make some sacrifice for my man who has disappeared ! Men bury the fellow-men. Had I been a devout believer dead, and go back to their every-day work, I think I should have become a monk." and so they bury the living too. I do not
Clodwig opened his eyes and met Eric's reproach thein for it, it must be 'so.
“It became clear to me that I was not fitted | literature, and every aspiration for the for the calling I had chosen. I lived too beautiful which had idealized the poet's vomuch within myself, and tried in every cation for me found satisfaction in my inevent to study the foundation and growth troduction to the classic world. •Every of character of those around me, not will. man may glory in his industry,' says the ing to acknowledge that the nature and ac- poet. I worked faithfully, and felt only in tions of men do not develope themselves so my father's house the happiness of a child, logically as I had thought. Besides, I was and in my youth the joy of mental growth. too passionate, and possessed by a constant My father hoped that success would be longing for the beautiful.
granted me where he had failed; he made “ I thought of emigrating to the New me heir of those ideas which he could neithWorld, but what should I do there? Was er establish as scientific trutlı, nor impart it worth while to have borne such varied from his professor's chair. If there ever experiences and struggles in order to turn were a happy home, made holy by lofty asa bit of the primeval forest into a corn-piration, it was my parents' house. There field ? Still, one consideration drew me my younger brother died, now very nearly toward America. My father's only broth- a year ago; my father, who already was er, the proprietor of a manufactory of jew- sorely sick at heart, with all his stoie fortielry, lived there, but was quite lost to us. tude could not bear this blow. It is two He had loved my mother's sister, but his months since he also died. I kept down the suit was somewhat harshly rejected, and he anguish of my bereavement, tinished my left Europe for the New World. He cast studies, and received my doctor's degree a off all connection with his home and family, few days ago. My mother and I formed and turned out of his house in New York'a various plans, but have not yet decided friend of my father's who guardedly men- upon any. I made this excursion to the tioned us to him. He would hear nothing Rhine in compliance with my mother's adof us, nor even of Europe. I imagined vice, for I have been working very hard ; that I could reconcile my uncle, and you on my return we meant to come to some know that a man in desperate circumstances decision. I met your brother-in-law, and looks for salvation to the most adventurous I feel it my duty not to turn away from the undertakings.
opening which has offered. I am ready to “My good father helped me. What he enter into private service, knowing what I had always recognized as my true vocation, undertake, and believing that I am thorfrom which I had turned blinded by the at- oughly equipped for it. There was a time tractions of army life, I now saw plainly: when I thought I could find satisfaction only A thirst for loneliness arose within me; I in working for some great public interest; felt that I must find some spot of earth now I should be content to educate a sinwhere no disturbing tone could penetrate gle human being, still more co-operate in the inner life, where I could immerse my- training to a fitness for his great duties one self in solitude. This solitude which is in- who, by his future lordship over vast posclusive of all true life, study, the world of sessions, represents in himself manifold buletters, now offered to me. My father helped man interests. me, while showing me that my past life was “ I have come to the end of my story. I not wasted, but must give me a new direc- do not wish that any one should think better tion and a peculiar success. He brought of me than I deserve, but I also wish to me a birth-day gift which I had received in pass for what I believe I am. I am neither my cradle; the senate of the University, modest nor conceited; I may be in dangerin which he had lectured before his appoint- ous ignorance, for I do not in the least ment as tutor of the prince, had bestowed know how I am regarded by others; I have upon me soon after my birth its certificate shown only what I find in myself by honest of matriculation, as a new-born prince re- self-examination. I mean to be a teacher. ceives a military commission."
He who would live in the spirit, and has not Clodwig laughed heartily, rubbed bis the artist's creative power, must be a eyes, leaned forward with both hands on teacher; for the teacher is, so to speak, the his knees, looked kindly at Eric, and begged artisan of the higher being, and, like every him to go on.
artisan, is so much the better workman, or “I have little more to tell you. I soon teacher, the more of the artist spirit he bas schooled myself, or rather my father schooled and uses. A thought is the best gift which me, to live for universal ends, and to put man can bestow upon man, and what I give aside all personal aims as much as possible. my pupil is no longer my own. I devoted myself to the study of ancient don me for having fallen into this vein of