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many were so poor they could not bring with them; and when they came out of the bath, they had to stand on the bare stones, or sit on a stone seat without matting, to undress and dress; and thus, though some might derive benefit, others were more likely to have their sufferings increased. Believing I should not feel myself acquitted in point of duty, unless I did my utmost fully to investigate the ac

shadowings.of Divine regard, of which he clothes, I was under the necessity of immediwas made very sensible during the interviews [ately leaving it. I was well informed, that he was favoured to have with his illustrious the poor patients were often obliged to dress friend; for whom his earnest breathings of themselves wet, for want of towels, which soul continue to be, that Almighty God may be pleased, according to the riches of his grace, so to strengthen him with might, by his Spirit in his inner man, as that he may be enabled, with holy magnanimity of soul, to rise above all the slavish fear of man, and above every discouragement that satan may be permitted to lay in the way of a faithful walking before God: that thus his illustrious friend may be found standing in the allotment commodations of these baths for the poor, I designed for him in this state of probation; and finally, through the merits of the great Redeemer, receive a crown of glory that fadeth not away."

Prudence seemed to dictate my not inserting the name "emperor," lest the parcel should be intercepted.

That to the prince Alexander Galitzin, and his secretary, was as follows:

"I believe I can safely say, a day has not passed since our parting, wherein I have not recurred to the frequent opportunities we had together, and been made renewedly sensible of the precious savour of Divine love, which then so sweetly united our hearts in sincere desires for each other's welfare.

set about the business in good earnest. When I had fully satisfied myself by witnessing the manner in which these baths were neglected every way, except the bare use of the water, the next consideration was, how these things were to be remedied; and I found I must not leave Buxton, if I was favoured to preserve a peaceful, quiet mind, until I had made every effort in my power towards the accomplishment of this object. I turned my attention first to one person and then to another in the place, to whom I might open my views; but I did not seem at liberty to confer with any of them on the subject. I was informed that visiters had already felt much on account of the neglected state of these baths, and in consequence of their exertions, an assurance had "Daily have my prayers been put up to the been given that the evils should be remedied; Lord Almighty, whose power alone can pre- but after they left Buxton nothing had been serve in heights and in depths; that he may done. I was brought so under the weight of be pleased to support your heads above every the subject, that it appeared to me I must make billow, which, in the ordering of his Divine a visit in person to the Duke of Devonshire, wisdom, and for the accomplishment of his the baths being his property. I therefore inscrutable designs, may be permitted to arise: drew up a fair statement of all things relative and I am well assured, that if he alone be to the defects of these baths, and walked to looked unto and depended upon, he will do Chatsworth. As I walked there, I felt somethus for you, and enable you to continue to | what discouraged. Having no letter of introrun in the ways of his requirings without duction, I called at the house of a Friend at being weary, notwithstanding the many dis- | Bakewell, hoping through him to obtain a letcouragements with which the enemy of all ter of introduction from the clergyman of the righteousness may be permitted to assail your parish; but the Friend was not at home. I minds. That this may be our united experi- | proceeded under the belief, that the best of inence, is the fervent prayer of my soul. Please troduction would accompany me if I only went accept of a small token of my remembrance. in the faith, that He, who, I humbly hope I

،THOMAS SHILLITOE."

felt, had called me to the work, was able to The Yearly Meeting being over, I returned make the way easy for me to obtain the ear to Sheffield. Not getting better of that lassi- of the duke; I therefore proceeded. On my tude, weariness, and increase of pain in my arrival at the porter's lodge, I was informed shoulder produced on the continent, it was the duke did not receive any verbal messages. proposed for me to spend some time at Bux-I had put into my pocket one of our works on ton, to bathe and drink the waters, which I the principles of our religious Society, thinkconsented to, and I found great relief thereby. ing, if a difficulty should arise about my obDuring my stay at Buxton, I was disposed taining an interview, this might in some way one morning to go into the poor's bathing- be a help to me: I then wrote the following room, whilst the men were bathing; but from note, and sent it to the duke:the smallness of the place, the want of proper ventilation, and the smell of the men's dirty

"One of the Society of Friends, wishes in

person to present the duke with a work, which he hopes the duke will find an interest in reading."

sirous of laying before me a prospect of duty, which would be required of him to make a visit to New South Wales; but as my mind was under exercise, from an apprehension the time was nearly come, when I must be willing to lay before my friends a prospect of reli

America, and that it would be unsafe for me to enter into the Friend's concern, I durst not read the letter. The latter end of this month, accompanied by my dear wife, we returned to our own home.

The note being sent, I was immediately introduced to the duke, who received me with great affability, requesting I would take a seat: on my presenting him with the book, he ex-gious duty, to visit Friends on the continent of pressed the satisfaction he had in receiving it, and in a handsome manner proposed paying for it; to which, of course, I objected. I then opened to him the main subject which had been the cause of my making him the visit. It appeared he was wholly unacquainted with Second month, 1826. My religious prosthe neglected state of these baths for the poor; pects to visit the continent of North America for he said, it was his desire that the poor being now matured, I this day informed the when bathing should be made as comfortable Friends of my own Monthly Meeting thereof, as the rich he treated the subject in an open, and a certificate was granted me accordingly. agreeable manner, manifesting an inclination At the Quarterly Meeting, in the third month, to receive any information I was capable of I again opened my prospect of duty, to pay a giving him. On my begging leave to read religious visit to Friends on the continent of the observations which I had made relative to America; which being united with by the the wants of the poor's baths, he readily Quarterly Meeting, an endorsement was made granted my request; a copy of which I left on the Monthly Meeting's certificate, and with him, recommending him to visit them signed by the clerk. Having proceeded thus himself when the men were bathing, that he far towards being set at liberty, and my dear might see and judge what was necessary to be wife becoming so infirm, as to make it necesdone there, to render the poor comfortable, sary she should be nearer meeting than we at which he assured me he would do, and that present were, and it being her desire again to the needful should be done; he expressed the settle in the compass of Tottenham Monthly obligation in strong terms, which he felt him- Meeting, I engaged a residence for her there, self under to me, by my laying this matter to which place we moved previously to the before him, and we parted in a friendly man- Yearly Meeting. At the select Yearly Meetner. I walked back to Buxton, rejoicing that ing, in the fifth month, 1826, I opened my the way had been made thus easy for me. Al-prospect of duty to pay a religious visit to though from the extreme heat of the weather, and the distance I had to walk, being at least twelve miles, I felt greatly fatigued; yet the satisfaction of mind resulting from exerting myself in doing my very best for the help of those, who were not in a way to help themselves, abundantly recompensed me. It soon became noised abroad that I had been to Chatsworth, to the duke, and the supposed errand I had been on; this reached the ear of the individual in whom the duke confided to see that these matters were properly attended to; he soon afterwards made me a call, informing me, if I had spoken to him, the need-I ful should have been done. But I had from good authority understood such promises had before been made by the same individual, but never realized. I was therefore persuaded no way was so likely to effect a remedy, as going to the principal, as I had done. I left Buxton shortly after; but I received accounts from visiters whom I left behind me, that soon after my departure the necessary improvements for the accommodation of the poor's baths took place, for both men and women.

Friends in America; and this meeting, after solid deliberation thereon, ordered a certificate to be prepared; which being done, and signed, was given me accordingly.

21st of sixth month, attended the Quarterly Meeting of Hertford, of which I still remained a member, and from Hertford, I proceeded to Hitchin, to take leave of my dear children and friends there.

CHAPTER XXX.

SIXTH-DAY, 21st of seventh month, 1826. left my dear wife, family, and comfortable home at Tottenham; proceeded to London, and, accompanied by three Friends, afterwards took coach to Sheffield, in Yorkshire; at which place we were favoured to arrive safely on seventh-day afternoon.

First-day, attended the usual meeting there; in which I humbly hope I may say, I endeavoured to acquit myself in such a way as would be the most likely to secure to me that continuance of Divine regard, which I awfully felt my situation in prospect would in a more 9th of third month, 1825. My son-in-law especial manner need. The meeting in the received a letter from a Friend, who was de-afternoon was largely attended, and I believe

proved a time of Divine favour, to the hum-in consequence of the crowd of cabin-passenbling of my heart. gers that were going in her, mostly gay young Second-day morning, 24th of seventh month, men; and should they be disposed to sit up attended to some arrangements for my depart- late at night, singing, dancing, and drinking, ure, and on third-day morning, accompanied as at times is the case, they would greatly by my dear son-in-law, John Heppenstall, pro-annoy me, and the captain might not have it ceeded to Ackworth school to attend the gene-in his power to prevent it. There being two ral meeting of that institution next day; on merchant vessels about to sail for New York our arrival we were kindly received by Robert the same day, it was by my friends appreWhitaker, his wife, and other members of that hended I should be more comfortably accomfamily. Here I met with divers Friends from modated by going in one of them: it was too different parts of the nation, which appeared late this evening to attend to this matter, so to be mutually consoling. It is a great favour that the subject was left until second-day. thus to find that the bond of true discipleship First-day, I found it hard work to stand up in is not dissolved. meeting this morning; I delivered that which Fourth-day morning, the meeting for Di- to me appeared to be the counsel of my Divine vine worship commenced; it was attended by Master. The evening meeting was largely Friends and some others not in profession attended, and was a very exercising time; yet with us, and proved a season in which the I felt thankful my lot was cast amongst Friends Ancient of Days was pleased, in his renew-in this place; believing there were yet preings of mercy, to condescend to come down served in this meeting, those who are mournand tabernacle with us, to the comforting of ing the desolation which the spirit of the world the minds of such as were rightly concerned has occasioned, within the borders of our once to gather to that place of true waiting, where highly-favoured Society. Spent the evening alone a right qualification for the performance at my quarters: this day closed under a comof acceptable worship is to be known. After fortable hope that I had been found in the this, the concerns of the institution were en- faithful discharge of apprehended duty; and tered upon being one, amongst many more, earnest were my desires to be preserved movnominated as a committee to examine the ing under the guidance of Divine wisdom, in children's progress in learning, I quietly sub-securing my passage across the mighty ocean. mitted to my name standing, rather than set Second-day morning, 31st of seventh month, an example of refusing; notwithstanding the way appearing to open with clearness in felt so enfeebled both in mind and body, with my mind, I proposed a few Friends to accomthe prospect of the nearly approaching trials pany me first on board the packet; apprethat awaited me, I could gladly have been ex- hending it would not be safe for me to relincused. In the evening, after supper, the usual quish a passage in her, in favour of one in pause took place; and by endeavouring faith-either of the merchantmen, until I had a fully to cast before my friends that which I believed was given me for communication, the day closed peacefully; for which, I hope I may say, I was favoured to feel humbly thankful.

clearer evidence than at present I was able to come at; notwithstanding all the difficulties a passage in the packet seemed to threaten. Accompanied by my kind friends Thomas and Frances Thompson, and other Friends, we proceeded on board the Pacific, packet-ship,

Fifth-day evening, the business of the general meeting concluded, with feelings of grati-Captain Crocker, bound for New York; we tude accompanying many of our minds for the favours that had been dispensed by the great I Am, during its several sittings, and in mercy continued to the end. After the close of the general meeting, I proceeded to Doncaster, lodged at Richard Cocking's, and next day returned to Sheffield.

took our seats in the cabin: my spirit was bowed in humble prostration before the throne of Divine grace, accompanied with earnest desires to be favoured with all-sufficient help, that a willingness might be brought about in me cheerfully to yield to the Divine will. I was favoured to get into that quiet, where Seventh-day, 29th of seventh month, I pro-alone the voice of the true Shepherd is to be ceeded by coach for Liverpool, with my sonin-law John Heppenstall; which place we reached this evening, and were kindly received by our mutual friends, Thomas and Frances Thompson, by whom I was informed my passage in the packet, about to sail for New York on third-day, had not been secured, agreeably to my request: the captain feared he could not make me comfortable, as he wished to do,

known; and a clear sense was, as I believed, given me, that if I were faithful to present conviction, I must submit to have my passage secured in the Pacific, and not suffer my mind to be perplexed by seeking further; I therefore informed my friends to this effect: and my passage was secured in the packet.

Third-day, 1st of eighth month, accompanied by my son-in-law, T. and F. Thompson,

my outward concerns, I might be preserved so fully and so faithfully attending to my great Master's business, and so patiently abiding in that sphere of action he may see meet to place me in, as that, when my service on the American shore shall be over, if permitted to return to my native land, it may be with the reward of that soul-enriching peace, which ever will in due time follow obedience unto Him.

Sixth-day, the wind fair: at ten o'clock this morning we came in sight of Cape Clear, and about noon we lost sight of land and entered the Atlantic Ocean. On taking a view of some of my giddy and gay companions on shipboard, and looking towards the approaching first-day of the week, I felt very thoughtful as to the manner in which I feared it was likely to be spent; unless early care was taken to

and divers other Friends, we went on board the packet. I humbly hope I could say, I felt truly thankful in feeling myself so much at home on board; my mind was calm, without a desire to leave, until, if permitted so to do, I should land on the other side the Atlantic ocean. We soon left the dock, and were towed by a steam-boat about five miles down the river Mersey; the wind being unfavourable for us to proceed on our voyage, we cast anchor for the night. Many of the cabinpassengers returned by the steam-boat to the shore again; but as I had taken an affectionate farewell of my friends, and had indulged in the prospect of them on the pier, as long as my eyes were capable of this enjoyment, I concluded it would be best for me to remain quietly on board, and occupy my time in arranging my luggage, before the hurry occa-endeavour after as quiet an observance of it, sioned by the other passengers, who would be as the nature of our situation and variety of alike occupied, commenced. Captain Crocker our dispositions would admit. I therefore took had kindly given up to me his own berth; an opportunity to speak to the captain on the which being about the centre of the vessel, subject, proposing our endeavouring to pass and having it to myself, I passed the night the first-day of the week, as much as possible, very comfortably; yet not without some feel- consistently, with the design of its being set ings of doubt, how it would prove with us apart from the other six working days; to when the cabin-passengers returned to the which he replied, he hoped it would be the vessel. I could not but anticipate the proba-case; and here the matter rested for the bility of our frequently interrupting each present. I had been led to consider, when other, from the small space we had to occupy the passengers returned to the vessel again, compared with our number; there were twenty-that the first impressions we receive of liking seven cabin-passengers, a considerable number or disliking each other, are the most lasting; in steerage, with our captain and his men, in all amounting to seventy-five souls.

Fourth-day morning, we had a very awful storm of thunder and lightning; but my mind was, through Divine mercy, preserved quiet through the whole; under the assurance I was as safe, and as much under the Divine protection at sea, as on the dry land. About ten o'clock, our captain and the remainder of my fellow-passengers came on board: and about half an hour after their arrival, we set sail with a fair wind for New York. I was truly glad that I remained on board, and embraced the opportunity of arranging my luggage, from the confusion occasioned for a time by those who went on shore. About ten o'clock this evening we passed Holyhead.

Fifth-day morning, the wind fair; I began to feel symptoms of sea-sickness, but it lasted a very short time, and I became more comfortable the remainder of the day. Although my dear wife and children at times glanced before the view of my mind, yet I was not permitted to feel anxiety on their account, or for aught I had left behind me. Having thus embarked on the bosom of the great deep under an apprehension of Divine requiring, my greatest concern was, that during my separation, whether shorter or longer, from them and

and that when once the mind has received an unfavourable bias, or an impression of disgust, in consequence of any improper demeanour on our parts, it becomes an almost insuperable bar to that line of usefulness which otherwise we might be of. My own comfortable procedure from day to day, whilst confined in such a narrow space as we were only the cabin or the deck for our accommodation, and the way opening in the minds of my fellowpassengers to receive any proposals I should feel it right to make to them, with respect to the manner of passing the first-day, would therefore much depend on my carrying myself in the outset as courteously and affably as I could towards all; at the same time, not countenancing wrong actions or expressions, by keeping silence when duty called upon me to rebuke; but being careful at all times to feel the necessity laid on me so to do, and that it be done in the spirit of love and meekness; otherwise to keep silence, and let the countenance manifest, we do not approve of words or actions opposed to the doctrine of Christ our Saviour.

Seventh-day, wind fair, which I hope I esteem a great favour: may I give proof thereof by my consistent conduct at all times and on all occasions, whilst confined in this small

space; and not expect more from my fellow-them. When it was over, I felt thankful, in passengers than I have a right to look for, that I had reason to believe my not joining considering their age, education, variety of my voice with theirs therein, had not lessened dispositions and propensities; but endeavour to bear with Christian patience and fortitude any unpleasant occurrences, should such take place.

that regard which they increasingly manifested towards me. Soon after our separation, we all retired early to bed. The day having thus comfortably closed, was cause of thankfulness to my own mind; and there was good ground for believing it was so with others in our company. This day's proceeding afresh excited in me feelings of gratitude to my Divine Master, in that he was pleased to preserve me from abandoning my passage in the Pacific.

protection, is the earnest prayer of my soul.

First-day morning, calm weather: we make but little way. My sickness has wholly subsided, and my appetite continues good; yet my mind is afresh brought under exercise, at the prospect of proposing to my fellow-passengers our assembling to-day in a religious capacity: may I be preserved, keeping my Second-day, not making much way to New proper place amongst them every way. At York: my mind continues to be preserved in the breakfast-table, this morning, I received patience; a virtue necessary for those to have strength to propose, that we should fix upon a good store of, who traverse the great deep, an hour to collect together, to sit down to read where there is nothing to look to but the unthe Scriptures; this seemed to be as far as I stable element, besides Him, whose controlling felt myself authorized to go; with which the power alone commands a storm or a calm. captain and passengers united, and proposed Yet the adversary assaults me not a little with our meeting at half-past ten o'clock this morn- fears and discouragements, if possible, to lay ing. A general muster took place according-waste my confidence in the Divine all-suffily after a short pause, one of the most giddy ciency, to care for and protect me on every of our company, a well-educated man, pro- | hand; but Divine mercy continues still to posed himself to take my Bible and be the first watch over me: that I may never be permitted reader. On my being queried with, if I had to forfeit this Divine superintending care and any choice where our reading should com-| mence, having thus far been favoured to gain Third-day, fair weather, but the wind so their attention, I felt most easy to leave this very light, we make but little way. How enmatter to themselves. After a suitable time tirely, under our present circumstances, are had been spent in reading, a pause ensued; we dependent on that Almighty Power, who and feeling, as I was led to believe, my mind commands the winds and is obeyed! Towards charged with something for communication, evening a brisk gale sprang up, which had a that which was offered appeared to be gene-cheering effect on the countenances of many rally well received. I had proposed in my of my fellow-passengers, who were longing own mind to make a visit to the steerage-passengers and the ship's crew, and read to them; but before I could make the effort towards it, a giddy young man of our company proposed such a measure being adopted, and offered to accompany me with my Bible, and others offered their assistance in reading to them; which accordingly took place; those who attended, of the steerage-passengers and men, behaved orderly, manifesting satisfaction that they had been thus far noticed; and the day passed over quietly, beyond my expectation. Supper being over, I proposed closing the day by some one of us again reading a suitable portion of the Sacred Writings, which was joined in with, and our company assembled in the round-house. After all were seated, and a quiet took place, first one and then another of our company read; after which a little quiet ensued, and one of our company, a serious young Englishman, proposed giving out a hymn. For a moment I felt in a strait between two; but as I was not bound to take an active part with them in this matter, it appeared best for me quietly to keep my seat amongst

to reach our destined port. I hope I am not unmindful of the favours I am enjoying, being preserved in resignation, as to the event of a short or a long passage.

Fourth-day morning, going through the night at the rate of seven knots an hour, and continuing so to do; from the motion of the vessel, some of us feel disposed to be a little squeamish; but towards noon the wind slackened. What a mercy it is from our heavenly Father, to be made willing, in every state, therewith to be content! During my time of retirement this morning, I was led to see with the eyes of my soul, as clearly so as ever I beheld any object with my outward eyes, myself landed in the city of New York, and a man approaching me in full speed, and I was led to believe his mind was charged with combustible matter to pour out upon me. This, at first, caused that degree of sadness to come over my mind, which I cannot describe; but I was favoured with the assurance, if my dependence continued to remain firmly fixed on that arm of Divine preservation, which had brought me through so many difficulties and

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